The Rise and Fall of Me
I wrote this a couple of years ago
Why cant it be that people remain close forever? What happens at that point when the peak is reached and the decline is started? In my experiences, everyone has followed the same negative parabola shape. We start out and gradually become closer and closer until we become so close we can talk about anything and everything and it is enjoyable. Thats the peak right there. Where the slope of the curve is equal to zero and time doesnt seem to exist. But after the peak always comes the decline. What goes up must come down. I think that usually the main cause of the start of the decline is that something diverts the girls attention away. Maybe they start talking on the phone more or they make new friends and go out more or get a new boyfriend or get a job but any way it is it leads us to the less talking part. When we talk less, we start to distance from each other. This distancing leads to me wanting to hold on more. This grasping leads to jealousy which leads to more distancing. Hope is then given up and I will stop trying to hold on and will let go. When this happens everything is gone and the bottom is reached. After the bottom is hit conversations rarely consist of more than basic greetings. No matter how hard we try we cannot hold a conversation even though just a little while before we were able to talk for hours. This is the cycle that everyone passes through with me. Its happened many times before and it will happen again
Why cant it be that people remain close forever? What happens at that point when the peak is reached and the decline is started? In my experiences, everyone has followed the same negative parabola shape. We start out and gradually become closer and closer until we become so close we can talk about anything and everything and it is enjoyable. Thats the peak right there. Where the slope of the curve is equal to zero and time doesnt seem to exist. But after the peak always comes the decline. What goes up must come down. I think that usually the main cause of the start of the decline is that something diverts the girls attention away. Maybe they start talking on the phone more or they make new friends and go out more or get a new boyfriend or get a job but any way it is it leads us to the less talking part. When we talk less, we start to distance from each other. This distancing leads to me wanting to hold on more. This grasping leads to jealousy which leads to more distancing. Hope is then given up and I will stop trying to hold on and will let go. When this happens everything is gone and the bottom is reached. After the bottom is hit conversations rarely consist of more than basic greetings. No matter how hard we try we cannot hold a conversation even though just a little while before we were able to talk for hours. This is the cycle that everyone passes through with me. Its happened many times before and it will happen again