Oct 31, 2010 21:19
It’s that time of year again where the realization of the changes of things around me sends me into a mini state of shock. I think it has something to do with the shorter days and changing of seasons.
I’ve come to realize the fluidity of all things in this world. I’ve heard the quotes about change being the only constant in the universe and logically I think to myself, well duh. But for the first time I can really feel this change in my heart.
I sat in my car one day in front of my house looking at all of the trees losing their leaves, trying to think of all the people that have come and gone from my life. Some people I have completely forgotten about. Some people who used to be family I now haven’t heard anything of in years. Some people are recently gone and some are in that transition phase. I typically think of losing people from my life as a bad thing. I don’t want to lose anyone especially those who have made a significant impact on it. It’s not a bad thing though. It’s just what it is. It’s life. Life is not static.
Now I need to discover my optimum trajectory and make the changes needed to follow that path. Life is like a giant flowing river with a set directionality leading through it. Sometimes you swim up river because you’re certain that’s where you’re supposed to go, but sometimes you’re wrong. The difference in directionality is very subtle but it’s definitely there. You can feel it if you pay attention. I’ve been swimming uphill for far too long now. It’s time to let go and let it take me where I’m supposed to go. Embrace the fluid life.