*breathes*
Deep breaths...
Deep breaths...
I feel... enlightened. It was, @ 3 years ago that i went to Myrtle Beach, in love with a girl named Lisa. Remember lisa? God... it seems like years ago, well, it was.
It's funny, do you ever say, "God, it feels like years ago" for something that happened like, two days ago? Anyways...
3 years ago, lisa.
2 years ago? Christy.
1 year ago? Sarah.
Now? Does it matter? Why am i in a repeating rut of life. I find myself moving from girl to girl, caring about what they think or say thinking that this one will be different. This will be the one.
And then blah. Are my expectations set to high? What exactly am i doing in this life. I'm 31 and, for all i can tell, i've never been in love, never been willing to take a bullet for someone (other than friends), and never felt what it's like to want to lay down and die just to make sure another person doesn't feel pain.
I have great friends that love me to death, i have an awesome family, and if i may brag for a second, i have charm a mile long and wide to get anything i want (not that i do).
My life rocks...
but, i feel like i'm missing something, somewhere. Not sure what, but... it's there... an empty feeling....
p.s., going to myrtle next week, again, totally infatuated with a woman, someone i've known over a year and it just sort of turned romantic. I absolutely adore her and completely feel like i want to take care of her and make sure she never feels an ounce of pain for the rest of her life...
Whats that mean? Probably that it will only last for another few days...
lol...sux
Deep breaths...
I feel... enlightened. It was, @ 3 years ago that i went to Myrtle Beach, in love with a girl named Lisa. Remember lisa? God... it seems like years ago, well, it was.
It's funny, do you ever say, "God, it feels like years ago" for something that happened like, two days ago? Anyways...
3 years ago, lisa.
2 years ago? Christy.
1 year ago? Sarah.
Now? Does it matter? Why am i in a repeating rut of life. I find myself moving from girl to girl, caring about what they think or say thinking that this one will be different. This will be the one.
And then blah. Are my expectations set to high? What exactly am i doing in this life. I'm 31 and, for all i can tell, i've never been in love, never been willing to take a bullet for someone (other than friends), and never felt what it's like to want to lay down and die just to make sure another person doesn't feel pain.
I have great friends that love me to death, i have an awesome family, and if i may brag for a second, i have charm a mile long and wide to get anything i want (not that i do).
My life rocks...
but, i feel like i'm missing something, somewhere. Not sure what, but... it's there... an empty feeling....
p.s., going to myrtle next week, again, totally infatuated with a woman, someone i've known over a year and it just sort of turned romantic. I absolutely adore her and completely feel like i want to take care of her and make sure she never feels an ounce of pain for the rest of her life...
Whats that mean? Probably that it will only last for another few days...
lol...sux