So, I went for my training run yesterday after work - it was a good one! I felt good, Walter kept up without flagging much, my pace was good, didn't get eaten by zombies though they were on my tail part of the way. Anyway, I brought some cash with me so I could stop and buy coffee at the convenience store on the way home (they carry coffee from the ( Read more... )

Well, I got the letter from Prudential. Apparently, H didn't disclose his stay at New Bridge when he applied for the extra coverage. Which I can see him doing. I mean, we weren't supposed to actually USE that policy. I don't understand why it took them 4 months to decide that that meant they weren't going to pay me, but whatever, I don't think I ( Read more... )

So, I ended up not doing anything particularly commemorative yesterday. It was really foggy - frequently throughout the day I could not see the house across the street - so I didn't want to drive anywhere and nothing in walking distance was a compelling enough draw to get me out into the cold and wet. And everything that could make me cry did, and ( Read more... )

 I should be doing the laundry I never got to yesterday. Or washing the dishes the somehow keep multiplying in the kitchen no matter how many meals I skip. But I just now, at noon, got my coffee made, so you can imagine how quickly I'm going to get onto those chores. Also, kitten asleep on my lap.

Went and picked out a grave marker yesterday - ( here's what I ended up with )

I've got a lot of things to be thankful for, and I am, but I so don't feel like thinking about that right now. Sorry, holiday.

I have this Day Counter app that tells me how long it's been since a specific day, or how long until that day comes. Today it says 182 days since H died, and 182 more to the first anniversary, so that's half a year. I'm ( Read more... )

So, hey, there is actually good stuff in my life, but, sorry, gentle readers, you don't get to hear about that right now. You get the stuff I have to get out of my head RIGHT NOW before it eats up too many neurons.

( As always, tl:dr self-involved navel-gazery )

The funeral home had a typo in my phone number, so they couldn't call me to tell they were in, but I called them to check this morning. Fixed the typo when I picked up the packet. So, that unlocks another section of my to-do list, basically.

The cause of death is acute bronchopneumonia with a "time interval between onset and death" of "days".

Days of ( Read more... )

 Home from another memorial for Henry. It was lovely and sad and just right. Once again with people offering me help if I need anything, makes me wish I needed anything, you know?

He would laugh to hear how many people said he was the best greeter the Thurs. night meeting ever had, that's for sure. It really is an area where he made a lasting ( Read more... )

So, I'm having a bad couple of days, I guess. Didn't want to get out of bed yesterday, and in fact went back to sleep after letting the critters out. Got up some time after 9, but never did get dressed or do much of anything. Today I am slightly more productive but crying a lot ( Read more... )

People keep asking me how I am. it might be just the habit of how you start conversations, but it seems to take on an earnest "No, really, how are you doing?" tone that I don't know how to answer. I'm sad a lot of the time and cry often but not constantly. I'm remembering to eat, though not necessarily at normal times, but I can recognize when the ( Read more... )