i dislocated my other shoulder
i dislocated my my right shoulder. woohoo fuck. brings a tear to my eye.
wotta joke i am huhuhu.
hmm, details are way below. now i shall emote first.
you know, fighting is something i feel im inherently good at. i mean iv always loved being physical, but i wasnt very good talent-wise when it came to "regular" sports like basketball, football, etc. i didnt jump the highest, handle the ball the best.. i wasnt much of a shooter, a scorer... i mean i was always known as the guy with good hustle and defense. and anyone with experience in sports knows of that one guy who makes up for his lack of talent by hustling like shit. and i was always that guy.
but with fighting... i dunno, things come naturally for me. i first experienced it when i first boxed during the summer of 2nd year. twas in a gym that eventually folded, but anyway. the coaches liked training me, said na pamboxing talaga galaw ko. at that time i was lke "wow ok cool" but it didnt really hit me cos i was in love then. in love with skateboarding hahaha!
and at that time my friends were already interested in MMA, joining yawyan, suntokaran, alliance. i wasnt that interested cos i was skating, and cos well, it bored me. especially when the marquee names of MMA then, aside from gracie, were shamrock and severn. n when i watched their match hwow that was incredibly boring haha.
twas only in college when i started appreciating it more. but my interest in it didnt grow cos i was in love then. with an actual girl this time hahaha! and that went the way of the skateboard (skateboarding broke my heart?? huhuhuhu!).
so in search of some sort of purpose after my life fell apart (which, though at that time i could still laugh with friends and be seemingly overall normal, was what really happened since i invested so much of who i am wait mma post toh!!!), i rediscovered MMA. and wow i love the sport. at that point in time i was doing muay thai and boxing southpaw. n i did this cos i wanted to take up MMA later on. felt like muay thai is the best stand-up game to have since it trains your punches, knees, kicks, elbows. but MT trains you to take hits and hit back. so i still trained boxing to have good head movement (rrrrraaaalph) and southpaw this time so i could be more dynamic. so as you can see i was already planning it in my head. that was early last year. same time as when i stopped all communication with "skateboard." haha.
but the real first thing to do was fix my weak-ass left shoulder, which was done last may. then a rest month, before rehabbing from july-october. november i was like it is time for MMA fight fight fight fight! so during rehab i was thinking a lot about MMA and basically wrestling seemed like such a big thing to have. you a striker? use your wrestling skills to keep from being taken down. submission specialist? use your wrestling skills to take your opponent down. so i searched and found SPRAWL UP. and wow i fell in love fast with wrestling. came oh so natural to me. medyo mukhang nagyayabang nga ako sa mga dati kong post pero sa totoo lang masaya lang ako nun. felt like hwow i can be good at wrestling too! my plan is coming to fruition! then i sprained my right ummm clavicle? basta yung not my shoulder, the part above it.
so december i had to rest it up. but i was happy cos wrestling felt really natural to me, as did striking [except head kicks cos im not so flexible. which is why im also not very good in bjj (rrrraaaalph)]. so i was thinking next year eto na! year of the ox!!! my year!!
i even had a whole ideal sked planned! MW - bjj, box, wrestle! TTH - MT, bjj! F - sprints/cardio/weights, wrestle! S - box, bjj, etc! of course that needed money, and well i cant get free money so boom hadta work. so work = means to MMA.
so january and feb been training wrestling. lined myself up for a grappling event and a smalltime MMA event. til this SHIT happened.
yesterday, was grappling. we were a lot that time since everyone was training for the grappling event. we had just finished circuit training of death which had 11 stations of MMA and weights in it. so the floor was covered with sweat. we were all grappling and every three minutes we exchanged partners. sounds like an orgy haha.
so third round, we're all tired. the mat's all sweaty. i get a full mount not cos of my skill but cos the other guy is so gassed out that he just lets me have it. i go for a kimura on my right side and he times it right and tries to bump me off him. so i post my right arm. as i post it, it slips cos off all the sweat. i still had 50% of my weight on the guy and basically, my whole right arm slips but but my body doesnt follow (stupid strong base!). so fuck it slips nga, it slips out of its freakin shoulder socket huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu PUTANGINA NAMAN.
it wasnt even the shoulder i was worried about. it was the other shoulder. tangina naman. so i was lying on the floor and being a veteran of shoulder dislocations i knew what i had to do. i slowly got up and i put it back myself using the technique that iv probably perfected by now. one of the trainers was actually a nurse and he didnt know how i did it. but at the moment of dislocation all i was thinking was no no no no not this not now no no no this shit cant be happening no no no my first mma match no no no this sucks so much no no no tangina right shoulder ko rin tangina naman eh. i wouldve cried if i let myself.
well there. fuck. both my shoulders suck.
grrrr... what good is it that i can wrestle naturally, strike naturally, if my shoulders are too weak for it. i mean i really wanted this to a huge extent. n being this old i have/had such a narrow window of opportunity. now what?
its just so sad. its really a dream of mine. the worst part is that knowing things couldve really been a possibility if i were a 100%. i mean losing by default is much much worse than losing cos you just plain lost. like both my boxing matches. its just extremely disappointing and i really let myself down. n i cant even say no dint let myself down cos heck my body did let me down!!! grrrr family genetics! had 2 uncles who boxed when they were in the army and they suffered from it too.
what now...
wotta joke i am huhuhu.
hmm, details are way below. now i shall emote first.
you know, fighting is something i feel im inherently good at. i mean iv always loved being physical, but i wasnt very good talent-wise when it came to "regular" sports like basketball, football, etc. i didnt jump the highest, handle the ball the best.. i wasnt much of a shooter, a scorer... i mean i was always known as the guy with good hustle and defense. and anyone with experience in sports knows of that one guy who makes up for his lack of talent by hustling like shit. and i was always that guy.
but with fighting... i dunno, things come naturally for me. i first experienced it when i first boxed during the summer of 2nd year. twas in a gym that eventually folded, but anyway. the coaches liked training me, said na pamboxing talaga galaw ko. at that time i was lke "wow ok cool" but it didnt really hit me cos i was in love then. in love with skateboarding hahaha!
and at that time my friends were already interested in MMA, joining yawyan, suntokaran, alliance. i wasnt that interested cos i was skating, and cos well, it bored me. especially when the marquee names of MMA then, aside from gracie, were shamrock and severn. n when i watched their match hwow that was incredibly boring haha.
twas only in college when i started appreciating it more. but my interest in it didnt grow cos i was in love then. with an actual girl this time hahaha! and that went the way of the skateboard (skateboarding broke my heart?? huhuhuhu!).
so in search of some sort of purpose after my life fell apart (which, though at that time i could still laugh with friends and be seemingly overall normal, was what really happened since i invested so much of who i am wait mma post toh!!!), i rediscovered MMA. and wow i love the sport. at that point in time i was doing muay thai and boxing southpaw. n i did this cos i wanted to take up MMA later on. felt like muay thai is the best stand-up game to have since it trains your punches, knees, kicks, elbows. but MT trains you to take hits and hit back. so i still trained boxing to have good head movement (rrrrraaaalph) and southpaw this time so i could be more dynamic. so as you can see i was already planning it in my head. that was early last year. same time as when i stopped all communication with "skateboard." haha.
but the real first thing to do was fix my weak-ass left shoulder, which was done last may. then a rest month, before rehabbing from july-october. november i was like it is time for MMA fight fight fight fight! so during rehab i was thinking a lot about MMA and basically wrestling seemed like such a big thing to have. you a striker? use your wrestling skills to keep from being taken down. submission specialist? use your wrestling skills to take your opponent down. so i searched and found SPRAWL UP. and wow i fell in love fast with wrestling. came oh so natural to me. medyo mukhang nagyayabang nga ako sa mga dati kong post pero sa totoo lang masaya lang ako nun. felt like hwow i can be good at wrestling too! my plan is coming to fruition! then i sprained my right ummm clavicle? basta yung not my shoulder, the part above it.
so december i had to rest it up. but i was happy cos wrestling felt really natural to me, as did striking [except head kicks cos im not so flexible. which is why im also not very good in bjj (rrrraaaalph)]. so i was thinking next year eto na! year of the ox!!! my year!!
i even had a whole ideal sked planned! MW - bjj, box, wrestle! TTH - MT, bjj! F - sprints/cardio/weights, wrestle! S - box, bjj, etc! of course that needed money, and well i cant get free money so boom hadta work. so work = means to MMA.
so january and feb been training wrestling. lined myself up for a grappling event and a smalltime MMA event. til this SHIT happened.
yesterday, was grappling. we were a lot that time since everyone was training for the grappling event. we had just finished circuit training of death which had 11 stations of MMA and weights in it. so the floor was covered with sweat. we were all grappling and every three minutes we exchanged partners. sounds like an orgy haha.
so third round, we're all tired. the mat's all sweaty. i get a full mount not cos of my skill but cos the other guy is so gassed out that he just lets me have it. i go for a kimura on my right side and he times it right and tries to bump me off him. so i post my right arm. as i post it, it slips cos off all the sweat. i still had 50% of my weight on the guy and basically, my whole right arm slips but but my body doesnt follow (stupid strong base!). so fuck it slips nga, it slips out of its freakin shoulder socket huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu PUTANGINA NAMAN.
it wasnt even the shoulder i was worried about. it was the other shoulder. tangina naman. so i was lying on the floor and being a veteran of shoulder dislocations i knew what i had to do. i slowly got up and i put it back myself using the technique that iv probably perfected by now. one of the trainers was actually a nurse and he didnt know how i did it. but at the moment of dislocation all i was thinking was no no no no not this not now no no no this shit cant be happening no no no my first mma match no no no this sucks so much no no no tangina right shoulder ko rin tangina naman eh. i wouldve cried if i let myself.
well there. fuck. both my shoulders suck.
grrrr... what good is it that i can wrestle naturally, strike naturally, if my shoulders are too weak for it. i mean i really wanted this to a huge extent. n being this old i have/had such a narrow window of opportunity. now what?
its just so sad. its really a dream of mine. the worst part is that knowing things couldve really been a possibility if i were a 100%. i mean losing by default is much much worse than losing cos you just plain lost. like both my boxing matches. its just extremely disappointing and i really let myself down. n i cant even say no dint let myself down cos heck my body did let me down!!! grrrr family genetics! had 2 uncles who boxed when they were in the army and they suffered from it too.
what now...