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Click to viewwow, 2:40. i am impressed by his performance! and with his last fight with BJ! BJ, i am not impressed by your performance! sayang yung super fight dapat, la ka naman cardio! of course you can kick my ass, but as a fan nasayangan ako.
iv been meaning to post, let some steam out, but there hasnt been any time at all for me lately. but right now im printing 30 pages full of color, so that's gonna take awhile.
where do i start? hmmmm. ok, i sold my soul haha. im now working fucking full time in the fam business, started when the new year came actually. buncha reasons why. 1st was well money. i was making money beforehend already, enough to take care of myself (since i dont pay no bills and all that). but well, it just wasnt me. i know you ought to step out of your comfort zone and all that, pero tangina, hindi talaga ako ma-salestalk eh haha. and what im getting now is sadly enough to say that yup i have sold my soul.
another reason is shit we dont have any saved money at all. at all. sure we have assets, like this house, some lots, pero kailangan pa rin may liquid shit eh. eh kung mamatay mom ko bigla, tangina, paano na yung dalawang nasa high school pa rin? well actually the easiest thing to do is sell those assets nga, pero i dunno... it just sucks how my mom handles money. any extra money, after expenses and all that, goes back to the business. i dunno, but after 30+ years of handling a business, isnt there something wrong when your bank account at the end of the month still says zero? it sucks and i kinda wanna influence the business/my mom to not be that way. especially since it means if we stop the business now there really isnt any money for the education of my two younger sibs.
other reasons are minor or are contrary to my own plans or are stuff that i just blurt out to make excuses when i feel like iv made the wrong decision.
what i dont like is that it's taken a bit of control of my life. well, not a bit, a lot. there's shit to do at night, there's shit to do in the morning. usual day is getting up 6AM, going to work, leaving around 5pm so that i can go to training, then going back to work for about an hour or 3 more. its definitely not what ppl usually thinks happens when the child of owner says he's "working" in the fam business when he actually not really doing much.
and speaking of training... its the only thing keeping me going right now. i mean, i havent gone to training this week since my knee is banged up and already im sick and tired of work. but when i do get to train it gets all those happy hormones working again yay. so yup training is my sex with girlfriend... just like skateboarding was before... huhuhuhuhu my life sucks! haha!
what sucks is that i cant train as much as i originally wanted at the start of the year. i wanted to train jiu-jitsu in the AM, stand-up in the afternoon, then wrestling at night. so far its only wrestling at night, MWF. i wouldve been MMA prodigy! haha. so my plans on at least trying for it have slowed. i already have a grappling competition lined up though. not gonna say when though. dont want my friends to be there and watch me dislocate my shoulder again huhuhuhu! its more for experience than anything else. and it's in the novice level anyway. so train to win but not pressure myself to win. well, since its tourney style id be pretty disappointed kung 1st round olats na kagad ako. hopefully i get matched with a supernoob. man see, now im amped just thinking about it when awhile ago i felt freaking bad about my situation!
what i think is gonna be the hard part is cutting weight. i asked my trainer, "160 ako ngayon, anong ideal na weight yung para sa competition na?" was expecting 155 cos it seemed logical, and i could do that easy, but he said 149! 149!! hwowza sacrifice yummy chips and all the good stuff! pero kaya, about a month or so pa naman yung comp. cutting weight is important for me cos i need to make the most of the strength advantage i have. i dont have much jiu-jitsu technique so yup madadala ko nalang sa control haha. lay and pray muna habang walang skills.
hrmmm... 6 months to a year? i dont wanna be doing this shit for long. and damn, now my older bro is back working the biz na rin. same fucking bro who tried working the business, and left after 6 months leaving the company 50 million pesos in debt. tangina. and we had no money nga for the future education of the two. ass. its gonna be hell working beside him. just work it a year, and then i d have the capital to i dunno buy a franchise or whatever fuck gusto ko magMMA. something that provides me enough money to train, and the time too.
enz ace gawin naten ah!