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compared to a couple of years ago, my blog is now full of memes and online quizzes. in fact, i seem to have more of those than decent entries. i dunno why, but lately, i've become too tired to write. true, i have new experiences, like the first time i went to dangwa and my first pair of hawaiianas (i couldn't afford the original), but i feel that it doesnt matter to anybody.
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i had the most enjoyable dinner with the samahan girls last night. it never really occured to me that they may be encountering drama in their respective lives, almost the same drama that i went through years ago. i was calmly cutting through my steak while horn-rimmed told her deppressing tale of work and lovelife. mia told her story of on-shore trainings and feelings of being left behind.
i used to encounter those same feelings, but not so much anymore. true, i have yet to be promoted (i'm still on staff level, even if i'm handling sales offices already), but it doesnt bother me as much. i guess i just learned to accept what was given to me and do what needed to be done. then again, it can also be because i have different priorities now, that i'm not as career-oriented as before.
we are all entitled to bouts of deppression, of frustration over near-promotions, of burnouts. that's precisely it, we are burned out. in a world so fast-paced, with our energies all zapped up of working too hard too much too soon, it's a wonder we still havent dropped dead. we have concentrated all of our powers in trying to prove to everybody that we can make it, that we are worth being here in this fast paced world.
a couple of years later, we ask, "is it all worth it?"
seriously, i dunno how to relax. it takes greater effort for me to relax than to work. when i'm on leave, i'm like a lion in a cage, pacing to and fro, looking for things to do.
yes, i'm a sick little girl.
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i had the most enjoyable dinner with the samahan girls last night. it never really occured to me that they may be encountering drama in their respective lives, almost the same drama that i went through years ago. i was calmly cutting through my steak while horn-rimmed told her deppressing tale of work and lovelife. mia told her story of on-shore trainings and feelings of being left behind.
i used to encounter those same feelings, but not so much anymore. true, i have yet to be promoted (i'm still on staff level, even if i'm handling sales offices already), but it doesnt bother me as much. i guess i just learned to accept what was given to me and do what needed to be done. then again, it can also be because i have different priorities now, that i'm not as career-oriented as before.
we are all entitled to bouts of deppression, of frustration over near-promotions, of burnouts. that's precisely it, we are burned out. in a world so fast-paced, with our energies all zapped up of working too hard too much too soon, it's a wonder we still havent dropped dead. we have concentrated all of our powers in trying to prove to everybody that we can make it, that we are worth being here in this fast paced world.
a couple of years later, we ask, "is it all worth it?"
seriously, i dunno how to relax. it takes greater effort for me to relax than to work. when i'm on leave, i'm like a lion in a cage, pacing to and fro, looking for things to do.
yes, i'm a sick little girl.