Yes, I still live
I just haven't felt like posting. Been kinda in a grey state. Holidays do that for me. I try my best to just ignore them, but no matter what, they are there, in you face. And there isn't a damn thing most people can do about it. The stores start even before HalloweenSamhain is over. It is sickening. I wish stores would stop. Strangely, it is better in the states then in Canada. In the US, the holiday progression is: Samhain, Thanksgiving, Axemas. You have a distinct order. Once one is over, you deal with the next. In Canada, Thanksgiving comes before Samhain, so as soon as the joyous celebration of the end is done, hell begins. November 1st, Axemas crap goes up. At least US merchants have to tone it down a bit by having Turkey stuff up. It also helps merchants because Turkey Day is a big stoplight....and the day after is the big green light. Everyone begins to go insane after that. Oh hell, they just BECOME insane.
Anyways, during those times, I tend to withdraw. I do what I need to, and keep going and survive given my current situation. I don't want to be a part of big things. I don't want to go out. I hate being outside during those times. So I become a mole, and do my best to survive. Now that it is over, it is time for me to find out who is still around and willing to deal with me. Those who don't care to understand and walk away from me, I wish you the best. Those who stick by, thank you. I would also like to thank one person in my real life circle of friends. She gathered the few folks she knew who didn't have family (or didn't want to be near their family) and had a dinner at her place. Just a couple people, but it was nice to at least be thought of. And a special thank you to my favorite lady, whom I would have gladly helped with her Yule dinner if I could have gotten to PA. Just because you are a kitchen witch, doesn't mean you have to slave over the cauldron alone hun. :)
Now, there is an announcement in here. Actually two. The first is more of a revelation on my part. After going over 1 year without intimate contact, or even warm contact from another human being, and witnessing the senseless acts that this human race has committed in recent years, I have decided to give up on them. Yup, that's right. This dragon leaves all humans to their fates. No longer will I try and help those I can. No longer will I go that extra step to get someone out of trouble they caused themselves. And that also means I have given up on even looking for anyone to share my life with on any level other then friendship. Seeing how the younger generations think from the two new folks at work just fills me with sadness. The new generations are getting lower and lower, and soon, we may as well be hitting our mates with clubs and dragging them back to our caves. Too many games. Too many hidden agendas. Too many secrets. Too many self denials. Too many lies. Too many double standards. And above all else, too much drama. Relationships should be simple, and I am through trying to play a game of Jenga to have one. If you are going to topple at the slightest move, you shouldn't be in a relationship to begin with.
The second announcement is that starting the 16th, I am going to be even less scarce then I am now. Why? Because....YOU ARE NOT PREPARED! Those who know me should know what I am talking about.
Anyways, during those times, I tend to withdraw. I do what I need to, and keep going and survive given my current situation. I don't want to be a part of big things. I don't want to go out. I hate being outside during those times. So I become a mole, and do my best to survive. Now that it is over, it is time for me to find out who is still around and willing to deal with me. Those who don't care to understand and walk away from me, I wish you the best. Those who stick by, thank you. I would also like to thank one person in my real life circle of friends. She gathered the few folks she knew who didn't have family (or didn't want to be near their family) and had a dinner at her place. Just a couple people, but it was nice to at least be thought of. And a special thank you to my favorite lady, whom I would have gladly helped with her Yule dinner if I could have gotten to PA. Just because you are a kitchen witch, doesn't mean you have to slave over the cauldron alone hun. :)
Now, there is an announcement in here. Actually two. The first is more of a revelation on my part. After going over 1 year without intimate contact, or even warm contact from another human being, and witnessing the senseless acts that this human race has committed in recent years, I have decided to give up on them. Yup, that's right. This dragon leaves all humans to their fates. No longer will I try and help those I can. No longer will I go that extra step to get someone out of trouble they caused themselves. And that also means I have given up on even looking for anyone to share my life with on any level other then friendship. Seeing how the younger generations think from the two new folks at work just fills me with sadness. The new generations are getting lower and lower, and soon, we may as well be hitting our mates with clubs and dragging them back to our caves. Too many games. Too many hidden agendas. Too many secrets. Too many self denials. Too many lies. Too many double standards. And above all else, too much drama. Relationships should be simple, and I am through trying to play a game of Jenga to have one. If you are going to topple at the slightest move, you shouldn't be in a relationship to begin with.
The second announcement is that starting the 16th, I am going to be even less scarce then I am now. Why? Because....YOU ARE NOT PREPARED! Those who know me should know what I am talking about.