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There is too much going on in my mind. I don’t enjoy much of anything lately. Over the past several months I thought I had taken steps forward but it just seems as if I am back at square one. I got away from my family and I don’t blow 10 grams on a weekly basis. Which is definitely a good thing but I am not one bit happier.
I have made a conscious effort to try and understand myself, and either fix or change. So far, nothing has worked. I over analyze pretty much everything leaving me at 448 Park Drive 7 days a week. I am a hermit. I don’t think I left my apartment, answered my phone, or even washed myself this weekend. I allow things to consume and take over my life. I am doing myself a disservice by secluding myself from the outside world. I blew off a lot of my friends this weekend and, Im sorry. I know my actions can only lead to people believing that I dislike them. It isn’t them, it is me. I need to start going out. It’s probably the best thing I can do for myself right now. Some of the best memories I have are with Justin, Bee, Melody, April, and Lisa. I miss our six-some. We NEED to hang out more often. Translation, I NEED TO GO OUT MORE OFTEN. Also, I can’t explain how much I miss Lisa. YOU MY OTHER HALF! YOU MY ROCK! YOU THE PENCIL TO MY LEAD, THE PILLOW TO MY BED! AH!
Anways, even though LJ is to promote the fabulous parties and tell everybody about how much fun you had over the weekend, as usual, I have made a depressing LJ entry. SORRY! Deal bitches!
Lovies
<3
T
I have made a conscious effort to try and understand myself, and either fix or change. So far, nothing has worked. I over analyze pretty much everything leaving me at 448 Park Drive 7 days a week. I am a hermit. I don’t think I left my apartment, answered my phone, or even washed myself this weekend. I allow things to consume and take over my life. I am doing myself a disservice by secluding myself from the outside world. I blew off a lot of my friends this weekend and, Im sorry. I know my actions can only lead to people believing that I dislike them. It isn’t them, it is me. I need to start going out. It’s probably the best thing I can do for myself right now. Some of the best memories I have are with Justin, Bee, Melody, April, and Lisa. I miss our six-some. We NEED to hang out more often. Translation, I NEED TO GO OUT MORE OFTEN. Also, I can’t explain how much I miss Lisa. YOU MY OTHER HALF! YOU MY ROCK! YOU THE PENCIL TO MY LEAD, THE PILLOW TO MY BED! AH!
Anways, even though LJ is to promote the fabulous parties and tell everybody about how much fun you had over the weekend, as usual, I have made a depressing LJ entry. SORRY! Deal bitches!
Lovies
<3
T