you know something is wrong when im updating more than once a day
I had a panic attack this morning when I was painting at my parents building. I couldnt breathe, and I was like "great, a heart attack!" I was wrong. So I took my Dunkin Donuts bag (yes i ate a donut ok!) and proceeded to hyperventilate. Then I started to uncontrollably shake. I called my mom and made her tell me a story. It wasn't a very good story but, it slowly calmed me down. It took a little while for me to get back to normal (even though im never 100% anxiety free). Yes, I actually had my mom tell me a story. wow, i can't remember the last time somebody told me a story. Yea, anyways I feel like im about to have another one. Basically, im autophobic (fear of being alone). I literally can't be alone. It's just too quiet and I feel like the walls are closing in on me. Basically, I feel like im on crazy pills (and I am). I dont know why it has to physically effect me. Everybody is lonely at times. UGH! I have to be up in 6 hours. I'm so tired and I can't go to sleep. I'm basically freaking out. GREAT! Maybe it's time for a bedtime story! great. JK. I need to like hire somebody to follow me around wherever I go so I will never be alone. Will anybody do that for me? I'll make it worth your while. I'm going to go back to breathing.