Sorry...
Hey. sorry... once again I haven't updated my journal in a while. I've just been busy lately and I haven't really thought much about it. Well... let's see.. what has happened lately?? hmm.. Oh, well my jaw locked up Thursday morning and I couldn't close my mouth. Dad had to take me to the emergency room. I have TMJ. It's when your jaw locks up and pops out of place when you move your mouth. It hurts really bad..*cries*. But anyways, they said I would either have to have surgery, or they would have to break my jaw and then wire my mouth shut..(I didn't really like the sound of that). So, I'm not exactly sure what's going on yet. If I do have surgery, it will be on October 27th. fun fun fun..huh?
Anyways, I'm not supposed to be opening my mouth too much, so that sucks. I can't eat many hard foods. All I ate yesterday was chocolate pudding. bleh.. But I have kinda been breaking the rules. I talked to Alyssa on the phone earlier for like 2 and a half hours! I kinda regret it now..because my jaw is hurting really bad. oh well.. as Evan would say, "Pain is just weakness leaving the body." lol.
Anyways, I have been like so depressed lately. I really don't know why. ...It's mainly having to do with Michael. (I can't help it) ...I used to talk to him EVERY SINGLE DAY. Well, I haven't talked to him in two and a half weeks now. He semmed kinda mad in the last email he sent me. I hope he hasn't just stopped talking to me. I've written him several emails lately asking him if everything is ok and if he just hasn't been checkin his email, or if he just quit talking to me. He hasn't emailed me back. I'm hoping he just hasn't checked his email in a while. But I can't quit wondering. ...I mean, he is like one of my best friends...(well...he used to be). I don't know if he thinks that anymore though. But I just don't wanna stop talking to him and lose touch with him. I want to stay his friend, and talk to him like we always have. I mean, I haven't seen him in forever. He used to come over to the house alot and hang out.. *misses those days*. and I was watching a video tape earlier of me and him and kea and alex hanging out at the New Years Party when we stayed up all night and played pool. *misses that too*. ...I just wish that we could do all of that stuff again. I hope we will one day soon. Just me and michael and kea... the way it use to be. Anyways... I'm beginning to sound obsessed. I'll just hush now before I make myself really depressed.
Well, my brother got transferred to Athens.. It sucks. He was supposed to get moved to Jackson County so my mom could visit him too, but the stupid people moved him to Athens instead! He hates it there. They have no outside visitation, you can only visit on Sundays, they don't have a tractor detail thing like they did at Carrollton..(he doesn't get to drive a tractor now). And all they get to do is take out garbage. They don't get to go outside at all! ..He can't stand it there. He said that if he could just get Carrollton out of his head then he would be ok.. but he can't stop thinking about how much better it was at Carrollton. I just can't stand the thought of him being miserable. It's making me miserable just thinking about it. ..Oh well.. it won't be long until he will be home! yay! I can't wait until November! Only like 4 weeks away!!
Well, my dad is in the back yard washing his truck. He's about to sell it. I'm gonna go help him wash it. I will write more later. love ya.
~Christy
Anyways, I'm not supposed to be opening my mouth too much, so that sucks. I can't eat many hard foods. All I ate yesterday was chocolate pudding. bleh.. But I have kinda been breaking the rules. I talked to Alyssa on the phone earlier for like 2 and a half hours! I kinda regret it now..because my jaw is hurting really bad. oh well.. as Evan would say, "Pain is just weakness leaving the body." lol.
Anyways, I have been like so depressed lately. I really don't know why. ...It's mainly having to do with Michael. (I can't help it) ...I used to talk to him EVERY SINGLE DAY. Well, I haven't talked to him in two and a half weeks now. He semmed kinda mad in the last email he sent me. I hope he hasn't just stopped talking to me. I've written him several emails lately asking him if everything is ok and if he just hasn't been checkin his email, or if he just quit talking to me. He hasn't emailed me back. I'm hoping he just hasn't checked his email in a while. But I can't quit wondering. ...I mean, he is like one of my best friends...(well...he used to be). I don't know if he thinks that anymore though. But I just don't wanna stop talking to him and lose touch with him. I want to stay his friend, and talk to him like we always have. I mean, I haven't seen him in forever. He used to come over to the house alot and hang out.. *misses those days*. and I was watching a video tape earlier of me and him and kea and alex hanging out at the New Years Party when we stayed up all night and played pool. *misses that too*. ...I just wish that we could do all of that stuff again. I hope we will one day soon. Just me and michael and kea... the way it use to be. Anyways... I'm beginning to sound obsessed. I'll just hush now before I make myself really depressed.
Well, my brother got transferred to Athens.. It sucks. He was supposed to get moved to Jackson County so my mom could visit him too, but the stupid people moved him to Athens instead! He hates it there. They have no outside visitation, you can only visit on Sundays, they don't have a tractor detail thing like they did at Carrollton..(he doesn't get to drive a tractor now). And all they get to do is take out garbage. They don't get to go outside at all! ..He can't stand it there. He said that if he could just get Carrollton out of his head then he would be ok.. but he can't stop thinking about how much better it was at Carrollton. I just can't stand the thought of him being miserable. It's making me miserable just thinking about it. ..Oh well.. it won't be long until he will be home! yay! I can't wait until November! Only like 4 weeks away!!
Well, my dad is in the back yard washing his truck. He's about to sell it. I'm gonna go help him wash it. I will write more later. love ya.
~Christy