Come away with me to another land. Where nothing will get in our way,
Wishful thinking....Longing to be somewhere else...In another place....Where happiness and joy flows from fountains. No one is angry...no drama.
How is it that everything can do a 360 on you and leave you standing...by yourself...confused and pissed?
This is how Im feeling right now, AT THIS VERY MOMENT!!!!!!
Depresseion is the worst feeling in the world. And never have I felt it this bad. Ive been sad before but never for so long.
Or maybe its an on going thing that never fully surfaced. Im so tired of putting on a smile and being happy and energetic, The only reason I do it is to make people smile....And they arent even smiling because they are happy, they are smiling because they have an idiot dancing around infront of them. Its a shame, Before I actually opened up and became the way I am today...I got a lot more respect. But...It was the wrong KIND of respect.
There is a huge difference between::::
Wow shes really intelligent and witty and smart
and
Wow, she scares the shit out of me....Better get on her good side.
.....WHY!!!!!! And why do the people I surround myself with have to be such douche bags. Geez! Most of my "Friends" dont even talk to me at school....I have to start the conversations and then end up getting blown off like what I have to say doesnt matter. WELL GUESS WHAT IT DOES MATTER, And if you blow me off, I hate to be this way...but ill do it too. And I can be JUST as mean as you guy....IF NOT MEANER...I dont want to...but if it comes to that...Watch out, ive got my finger on the bitch switch and Im ready to go....
Gosh and this whole guy thing isnt helping either.
All the guys in my life have been mean. Well, when I say guys in my life, I mean...My BEST of BEST friends....that Ive known for many years. Dan is the only one that EVER calls me. I love Dan with all my heart....But we have a weird friendship.
He has this wall in his room that he puts pictures on and notes hes gotten from his firends...He has a lot of really pretty girls on his all...All of which are his friends..and he has little notes from them. once he was going to leave our school....So a bunch of people made him little cards and what not..And I made him a really cool one....And All of the pretty girls cards are on his wall.....But mine is nowhere to be found.
And I gave him this really awesome picture of him and I at homecoming....And again..Its no where. Sitting on top of his TV collecting dust.
I guess these things dont matter. But still....
Geez Sarah, Stop looking for acceptance from people (Thats what your thinking right?)
Well oh well. Im usually never this way.
Out with the old in with the new...Why should I be so damn happy all the time..it isnt that great. No one takes you seriously when you actually enjoy life. haha....Man, Happiness is over rated (sarcasm)
ANYWAY. Must finish humanities.
All in all.....Today was good.
*LOVES*
How is it that everything can do a 360 on you and leave you standing...by yourself...confused and pissed?
This is how Im feeling right now, AT THIS VERY MOMENT!!!!!!
Depresseion is the worst feeling in the world. And never have I felt it this bad. Ive been sad before but never for so long.
Or maybe its an on going thing that never fully surfaced. Im so tired of putting on a smile and being happy and energetic, The only reason I do it is to make people smile....And they arent even smiling because they are happy, they are smiling because they have an idiot dancing around infront of them. Its a shame, Before I actually opened up and became the way I am today...I got a lot more respect. But...It was the wrong KIND of respect.
There is a huge difference between::::
Wow shes really intelligent and witty and smart
and
Wow, she scares the shit out of me....Better get on her good side.
.....WHY!!!!!! And why do the people I surround myself with have to be such douche bags. Geez! Most of my "Friends" dont even talk to me at school....I have to start the conversations and then end up getting blown off like what I have to say doesnt matter. WELL GUESS WHAT IT DOES MATTER, And if you blow me off, I hate to be this way...but ill do it too. And I can be JUST as mean as you guy....IF NOT MEANER...I dont want to...but if it comes to that...Watch out, ive got my finger on the bitch switch and Im ready to go....
Gosh and this whole guy thing isnt helping either.
All the guys in my life have been mean. Well, when I say guys in my life, I mean...My BEST of BEST friends....that Ive known for many years. Dan is the only one that EVER calls me. I love Dan with all my heart....But we have a weird friendship.
He has this wall in his room that he puts pictures on and notes hes gotten from his firends...He has a lot of really pretty girls on his all...All of which are his friends..and he has little notes from them. once he was going to leave our school....So a bunch of people made him little cards and what not..And I made him a really cool one....And All of the pretty girls cards are on his wall.....But mine is nowhere to be found.
And I gave him this really awesome picture of him and I at homecoming....And again..Its no where. Sitting on top of his TV collecting dust.
I guess these things dont matter. But still....
Geez Sarah, Stop looking for acceptance from people (Thats what your thinking right?)
Well oh well. Im usually never this way.
Out with the old in with the new...Why should I be so damn happy all the time..it isnt that great. No one takes you seriously when you actually enjoy life. haha....Man, Happiness is over rated (sarcasm)
ANYWAY. Must finish humanities.
All in all.....Today was good.
*LOVES*