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WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I get to go to the 311 concert! This is weird.......ive never been to a concert before....at...least..i think i havent. Oh well. I can now say my first concert will be awesome! YES! AND to top it all off, Rhineharts going with me.
Well for starters..... I had the worst first half day of my summer this whole morning and part of this afternoon. In fact these past two days suck monkey butt cuz i havent seen Rhinehart. SNiff. Well, I didnt wake up in time for church so therefore..without me knowing of course, i get grounded till wednesday when i can go to church with my sister. I hate church. All you do is read the bible. Hell, i got the bible at home. I dont htink it does much for me but oh well. i didnt know i was grounded until i got into the car, when i realized everyone was mad at me. Then they told me that i shouldnt be acting up. I was like WTF? That was aweful. Then i got bitched at in the car all the way to the woodlands...were moving there. Yea, it sux. They kept telling me that i should have more respect for the fuckers. Fuck you. You dont have respect for me then i wont have ANY respect for you. I mean i give people second chances and more warnings but my parents are old stuff. They had to drop me off at food town so i could buy milk and chips. My mom and Dad sent me, and my dad would pick me back up after dropping walker and mom off. It was on our way back from the woodlands and walker was late for his little boyscout shit. So i went inside got the milk and some chips came back out and my dad automatically says, "did you get the cheetos?" WTF? I have very little memory span in my head and i barely remember a scratch of that. I forgot. It completely didnt remember at all. I honestly thought i didnt heasr him say that. They said i did it on purpose. I dont do anything on purpose to hurt people. I mean fuck, im stupid what are you gonna do? Well i got cursed at and all kinds of shit. I cried i thought he was going to hit me and he had to call me all sorts of names, and it hurt, it really honstly hurt. He went back inside and got the right chips and as soon as he came back he started yelling at me again. I mean Fuck me! i really dont want that life. Then more bitching when i got home. More crying and then he left to take Walker. I was seriously thinking about doing myself in right then and there...then i thought about Rhinehart and how much ive grown to love him and how real this love feels. and how much of a wonderful time i had the night before when friends actually dropped by and hung out without having a reason. It felt so good just to have friends acknowledge that im alive. Thanx.My dad came in before he left and hugged me and said he didnt like to yell at me and call me names, i told him that doesnt help. Its doesnt work like that. It really hurt me. It was a fake. That wasnt a real apology. Then my mom came in and apologized for the whole day. Alittle after my dad got back he apologized again. I dont care anymore. They cant say theyre sorry for all this. They let it happen. It hurt really bad. After i seemed to get alittle over it i wondered about 311 so i went online found the site and then showed my mom. (My mom recently found out how to use the internet......Its GOD) Well shell buy them but she doesnt know how to work it....and i dont have a credit card. So my dad says hes not sure if im going or not. WTF?!?!?!? I need to know now! grrr. Ill end up going so oh well. No worries :) Im all better now. Still a little hurt but i think ill be fine. I just miss Rhinehart. I wanna talk to him...I think its weird how everything worked out today.
later everyone! MUa
Well for starters..... I had the worst first half day of my summer this whole morning and part of this afternoon. In fact these past two days suck monkey butt cuz i havent seen Rhinehart. SNiff. Well, I didnt wake up in time for church so therefore..without me knowing of course, i get grounded till wednesday when i can go to church with my sister. I hate church. All you do is read the bible. Hell, i got the bible at home. I dont htink it does much for me but oh well. i didnt know i was grounded until i got into the car, when i realized everyone was mad at me. Then they told me that i shouldnt be acting up. I was like WTF? That was aweful. Then i got bitched at in the car all the way to the woodlands...were moving there. Yea, it sux. They kept telling me that i should have more respect for the fuckers. Fuck you. You dont have respect for me then i wont have ANY respect for you. I mean i give people second chances and more warnings but my parents are old stuff. They had to drop me off at food town so i could buy milk and chips. My mom and Dad sent me, and my dad would pick me back up after dropping walker and mom off. It was on our way back from the woodlands and walker was late for his little boyscout shit. So i went inside got the milk and some chips came back out and my dad automatically says, "did you get the cheetos?" WTF? I have very little memory span in my head and i barely remember a scratch of that. I forgot. It completely didnt remember at all. I honestly thought i didnt heasr him say that. They said i did it on purpose. I dont do anything on purpose to hurt people. I mean fuck, im stupid what are you gonna do? Well i got cursed at and all kinds of shit. I cried i thought he was going to hit me and he had to call me all sorts of names, and it hurt, it really honstly hurt. He went back inside and got the right chips and as soon as he came back he started yelling at me again. I mean Fuck me! i really dont want that life. Then more bitching when i got home. More crying and then he left to take Walker. I was seriously thinking about doing myself in right then and there...then i thought about Rhinehart and how much ive grown to love him and how real this love feels. and how much of a wonderful time i had the night before when friends actually dropped by and hung out without having a reason. It felt so good just to have friends acknowledge that im alive. Thanx.My dad came in before he left and hugged me and said he didnt like to yell at me and call me names, i told him that doesnt help. Its doesnt work like that. It really hurt me. It was a fake. That wasnt a real apology. Then my mom came in and apologized for the whole day. Alittle after my dad got back he apologized again. I dont care anymore. They cant say theyre sorry for all this. They let it happen. It hurt really bad. After i seemed to get alittle over it i wondered about 311 so i went online found the site and then showed my mom. (My mom recently found out how to use the internet......Its GOD) Well shell buy them but she doesnt know how to work it....and i dont have a credit card. So my dad says hes not sure if im going or not. WTF?!?!?!? I need to know now! grrr. Ill end up going so oh well. No worries :) Im all better now. Still a little hurt but i think ill be fine. I just miss Rhinehart. I wanna talk to him...I think its weird how everything worked out today.
later everyone! MUa