Nov 18, 2005 00:57
So the other night i totally had some vivid ass dreams. Usually i have them and i end up forgetting the main topic or main occurrence, but this one i remembered, most likely due to the subject. I tend to have dreams that apply to my life or are necessary for me to maintain a sense of awareness with myself. Usually they have a chance of coming true or being relevant to something i need to do or should have done.
This dream was one that paired me and someone i have grown very found of over the past 5 months and have slowly became really close with. I don't really feel a sense of lust between us, but I know we are so similar and so compatible, and i know we both can feel this. She is in California at the moment and i feel that is good thing, since i need to clear up my mind, this dream didn't help, or maybe it did.
She is on my mind often, but i don't know if i really like her that way. In the dream we were chilling out just being us and she reached over and told me "Aaron I like you" (i know this sounds so middleschool), but it wasn't, my reaction was just what i typed previous. One of confusion and not sure what to say, like i want to like you but i don't know if i do, or let me look away and try to change the subject; which in the dream i did, and i woke up contemplating was that what i would have done? Would I have said i like you too, and kissed her or would i have just backed off and been shy and confused? I totally think she is attractive and that she is wonderful but the lust factor is not there right now, i thought maybe its because she lives elsewhere so i try to evade that aspect and respect her, and respect our friendship that i cherish. Maybe its because i know thats not what our relationship is supposed to be about at the moment, and we are learning about eachother in a healthy fashion... But then I say to myself, she is just a friend and thats how it should be, or maybe its because she is Jewish and my mom, always says "when are you going to find a nice Jewish girl", hence i do the opposite! I need a good fortune cookie. She is moving here soon and i hope this dream sheds some light on this situation and prepares me if the crossroads of becoming more then friends decides to arise.