responsibility sucks
My week has been a month long . . . honestly!!! I was supposed to play "happy hostess" Thursday night at a bridal shower. The responsibilities of work prevented me from going.........which, as it turns out, is a good thing. I probably would have lost it right there in front of everyone. Why is it that friends take liberty with friends? They treat perfects strangers better than they treat their supposedly best friends. Now I remember why I don't like getting emotionally close to people.
The responsibilities continued Friday, and I missed a wedding. I showed up 45 minutes late. I asked if they could repeat the whole deal for me since I just arrived.....they didn't. Go Figure!
So there I was at an outdoor wedding in the casual work clothes I'd been wearing all day, my hair piled on top of my head, barely any trace of makeup left on my face . . . I was a lovely sight indeed!
I stayed for about 30 minutes and made "nice talk" with a few people, then slipped out and came home to an empty house . . . Chris left for NC that afternoon for a bicycle race in the mtns of NC. I didn't sleep well at all last night.......I miss him soooo much when he's gone.
Dang, I used to be such an independent woman. I've become so incredibly needy when it comes to Chris. That's it in a nutshell....I just plain need him......he's such a comforting force in my life.
Sometimes my mind drifts to the future....I see the widows in our church and wonder how in the world they do it. When I think of having to live my life without Chris, I start to cry. He's become such a part of me. His smile, his hug, his quiet strength.
Well, enough of this. I have responsible things to do today.
Responsibility Sucks
The responsibilities continued Friday, and I missed a wedding. I showed up 45 minutes late. I asked if they could repeat the whole deal for me since I just arrived.....they didn't. Go Figure!
So there I was at an outdoor wedding in the casual work clothes I'd been wearing all day, my hair piled on top of my head, barely any trace of makeup left on my face . . . I was a lovely sight indeed!
I stayed for about 30 minutes and made "nice talk" with a few people, then slipped out and came home to an empty house . . . Chris left for NC that afternoon for a bicycle race in the mtns of NC. I didn't sleep well at all last night.......I miss him soooo much when he's gone.
Dang, I used to be such an independent woman. I've become so incredibly needy when it comes to Chris. That's it in a nutshell....I just plain need him......he's such a comforting force in my life.
Sometimes my mind drifts to the future....I see the widows in our church and wonder how in the world they do it. When I think of having to live my life without Chris, I start to cry. He's become such a part of me. His smile, his hug, his quiet strength.
Well, enough of this. I have responsible things to do today.
Responsibility Sucks