Cold War Kids
Chris asked me a question last night at the Cold War Kids concert. He asked me if I always thought sad thoughts. He also asked me if I was happy. He meant on the whole.
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It sorta gave me pause. Lately I have been entirely depressed--its hard, you know, when you are totally in love with someone and they break your heart. It sucks that he isn't in love with me. So of course i am sad and thinking sad things.
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But that's not the whole truth.
I can't remember a time when i actually didn't feel sad inside. I can't remember not being jaded, or feeling let down by the world. I can't remember a time when I haven't been emotionally sensitive. I can remember lots of happy times, lots of smiles and laughing and stuff. But i guess i can't remember being happy for longer than a few days.
And that makes me tragically sad, and really, gives me no hope for my future or a better life.
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stupid.
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It sorta gave me pause. Lately I have been entirely depressed--its hard, you know, when you are totally in love with someone and they break your heart. It sucks that he isn't in love with me. So of course i am sad and thinking sad things.
***
But that's not the whole truth.
I can't remember a time when i actually didn't feel sad inside. I can't remember not being jaded, or feeling let down by the world. I can't remember a time when I haven't been emotionally sensitive. I can remember lots of happy times, lots of smiles and laughing and stuff. But i guess i can't remember being happy for longer than a few days.
And that makes me tragically sad, and really, gives me no hope for my future or a better life.
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stupid.