Christmas blahs
Occasionally, things come up that my dear husband and I think differently on. This is one of them.
I don't understand why a specific time of year is when people reach out to each other. What is wrong with doing it the rest of the year? I am a firm believer that if you aren't interested in 'reaching out' to me in June, please don't bother during December. It feels fake and forced.
Don't get me wrong, there are things that I do love about the Christmas season. I love the smells of yummy stuff baking, the sounds of Christmas carols, the beautifully decorated trees I've seen over the years. I'll admit that I enjoy receiving gifts as much as anyone else, and I love giving those I love something they want.
But I think that I love what Christmas was to me as a child. The sights and sounds were magical. I couldn't tell you most of what I got as gifts as a child, but I can clearly remember every single christmas tree we ever had. I can remember looking forward to going to my aunt's house for the unveiling of her magnificent tree each year.
Each year, I find it harder to get jazzed up about the holiday. I finally got the tree up at the end of the 1st week of Dec (I've always done it the day after Thanksgiving) but it wasn't decorated. Our daughter finally finished the tree, cuz I just didn't have the gumption.
I'm hot a 'bah - humbug' kind of person, but it just isn't magical like it used to be. It's too commercial, too forced, too 'required'.
I want to find / start some type of tradition that we can adopt for Christmas that feels better for me. I think I'll begin researching the different ways this season is celebrated by peoples around the world. Maybe pick and chose pieces of some of them to create our own special way of celebrating. We'll see what happens.
I just know that I don't want future Christmas's to revolve around how much money we have or don't have. The years when we don't have the money to do what we want (or what we think we have to do), I lose all joy in the holiday season. I feel inadequate, like I'm letting people down, or that one will think I love the other one more because they got more gifts, or more expensive gifts. And then I get pissed that I am feeling that way, which makes me even more ambivalent about the holiday.
I don't understand why a specific time of year is when people reach out to each other. What is wrong with doing it the rest of the year? I am a firm believer that if you aren't interested in 'reaching out' to me in June, please don't bother during December. It feels fake and forced.
Don't get me wrong, there are things that I do love about the Christmas season. I love the smells of yummy stuff baking, the sounds of Christmas carols, the beautifully decorated trees I've seen over the years. I'll admit that I enjoy receiving gifts as much as anyone else, and I love giving those I love something they want.
But I think that I love what Christmas was to me as a child. The sights and sounds were magical. I couldn't tell you most of what I got as gifts as a child, but I can clearly remember every single christmas tree we ever had. I can remember looking forward to going to my aunt's house for the unveiling of her magnificent tree each year.
Each year, I find it harder to get jazzed up about the holiday. I finally got the tree up at the end of the 1st week of Dec (I've always done it the day after Thanksgiving) but it wasn't decorated. Our daughter finally finished the tree, cuz I just didn't have the gumption.
I'm hot a 'bah - humbug' kind of person, but it just isn't magical like it used to be. It's too commercial, too forced, too 'required'.
I want to find / start some type of tradition that we can adopt for Christmas that feels better for me. I think I'll begin researching the different ways this season is celebrated by peoples around the world. Maybe pick and chose pieces of some of them to create our own special way of celebrating. We'll see what happens.
I just know that I don't want future Christmas's to revolve around how much money we have or don't have. The years when we don't have the money to do what we want (or what we think we have to do), I lose all joy in the holiday season. I feel inadequate, like I'm letting people down, or that one will think I love the other one more because they got more gifts, or more expensive gifts. And then I get pissed that I am feeling that way, which makes me even more ambivalent about the holiday.