im out there man
i am constantly rethinking my exsistence because i know that ther must be a reason why i am here and i know that it has nothing to do with anything i am currently doing. i dont even really know if i want to know why im really here. or maybe there isnt any reason why im here. maybe im just some guinea pig used to see how much bullshit one being can take in a lifetime. i dont know why i cant just have some time to not worry about anything and just be the center of someones attention.
heres the breakdown: i dont have any money for anything (not christmas, not birthdays, not my car, not my cell phone, not my credit card). which in turn causes me to use my credit card even more....etc.
i dont feel like im anything to anyone ever. i feel like people just use me and say and do whatever they want to me and then assume that im just going to be runover by their bullshit. parents, friends, other loved ones. why cant they just see what i need? i just want to know that im a special part of your life and that im wanted somewhere, anywhere in this world. show me im wanted more than anyone else, hug me harder than everyone else, look into my eyes sometimes.
heres the breakdown: i dont have any money for anything (not christmas, not birthdays, not my car, not my cell phone, not my credit card). which in turn causes me to use my credit card even more....etc.
i dont feel like im anything to anyone ever. i feel like people just use me and say and do whatever they want to me and then assume that im just going to be runover by their bullshit. parents, friends, other loved ones. why cant they just see what i need? i just want to know that im a special part of your life and that im wanted somewhere, anywhere in this world. show me im wanted more than anyone else, hug me harder than everyone else, look into my eyes sometimes.