For my own sanity
It is Tuesday, January 10th, 2006, at 9:30pm. I decided I needed to come up here and type my thoughts out before I go crazy!!!
2006 has not started out very well at all. Let us start with January 5th when we received the call from my brother's fiancee that my brother was on his way to his business to kill himself. From that moment I feel like my whole brain and life is on a downward spiral. We managed to get him through the episode, but it all started at his ex wife's house when he went to drop off his son, Scottie Jr. He ended up shoving her down and she fell into her mom and so they both were hurt, well, his ex had no sign of any injury or anything. However, her mom fell harder due to her falling on her and so the mother's arm was cut a little bit and she had some bruising on her arm. Anyway, my nephew was there for the whole ordeal and it was awful. My ex-sister in law is nothing but a bitch. I cannot even go into detail on the mental torture she has put my brother through during their marriage and now. They were divorced in July of 2005.
Anyway, I had an appointment in Ann Arbor today, let me tell you, that is almost two hours away. I got there with no problem and was at the wrong place. I had a major piss fit, I was so pissed and upset I cried forever, ahhhhhhhh! To make a long story short I had to reschedule for Thursday.
The thing with me is that I live my life with looking forward to things. No matter what it is I just look forward to and I can stay away from the whole depression shit. Well, this sure as hell didn't help things. Disappointment crushes me as little as it may seem.
THe other disappointing thing that happened was that we had our dog bred in November and her due date for the puppies (golden retriever, awww), was this week. I took her to the vet cause I couldn't stand the wait anymore and SHIT she isn't pregnant. Talk about another disappointment to add to the list of hell from 2006. I realize things could be so much worse and are for many people, but to me this was shitty!
So, here's to 2006.......FUCK YOU!
Ha, I am feeling better just by writing this so please realize I am not a psycho. Only at times!
2006 has not started out very well at all. Let us start with January 5th when we received the call from my brother's fiancee that my brother was on his way to his business to kill himself. From that moment I feel like my whole brain and life is on a downward spiral. We managed to get him through the episode, but it all started at his ex wife's house when he went to drop off his son, Scottie Jr. He ended up shoving her down and she fell into her mom and so they both were hurt, well, his ex had no sign of any injury or anything. However, her mom fell harder due to her falling on her and so the mother's arm was cut a little bit and she had some bruising on her arm. Anyway, my nephew was there for the whole ordeal and it was awful. My ex-sister in law is nothing but a bitch. I cannot even go into detail on the mental torture she has put my brother through during their marriage and now. They were divorced in July of 2005.
Anyway, I had an appointment in Ann Arbor today, let me tell you, that is almost two hours away. I got there with no problem and was at the wrong place. I had a major piss fit, I was so pissed and upset I cried forever, ahhhhhhhh! To make a long story short I had to reschedule for Thursday.
The thing with me is that I live my life with looking forward to things. No matter what it is I just look forward to and I can stay away from the whole depression shit. Well, this sure as hell didn't help things. Disappointment crushes me as little as it may seem.
THe other disappointing thing that happened was that we had our dog bred in November and her due date for the puppies (golden retriever, awww), was this week. I took her to the vet cause I couldn't stand the wait anymore and SHIT she isn't pregnant. Talk about another disappointment to add to the list of hell from 2006. I realize things could be so much worse and are for many people, but to me this was shitty!
So, here's to 2006.......FUCK YOU!
Ha, I am feeling better just by writing this so please realize I am not a psycho. Only at times!