What's going on?
These "moments" are happening earlier and earlier! No longer 3:30. Tonights...12 midnight. I haven't done this since the last time I posted about it. I have been doing well. But once I heard from a couple of my g/f's that they were back with their ex's it got me hoping. And hoping is the LAST thing I want anymore.
I always wait 10 minutes before I call him or text him.
Tonight..I have been waiting since 10. Still haven't done it..and I still want to. I can't. Just can't. Because I know...he doesn't feel the same. He knows how to get ahold of me if he wanted to. He's fine, Bonnie. He's fine.
No point in trying.
I seem better off when I am sick and take Benadryl or NyQuil...knocks me out. Keeps me from thinking.
I have been talking to Kari tonight. We have been realizing how insanly similar we are. It drives us nuts. My ((practically)) little sister is in South Dakota and I am here and she looks acts, and even SLEEPS like me! I'm planning on visiting when she graduates next year. I can't wait! :)
Today went prefectly fine. Nothing went wrong. Nothing. I realized how incredibly independent I have become. You would really be surprised.
I'm buying myself dinner. $15.00 for the Night at the Races. It's proceeds to to the American Heart Association or whatever. It should be a great night out with my friends from Kent. Rumor has it...FREE BEER! lol But thats NEXT Friday..I need plans for this Friday. Or whatever.
I know Scott mentioned something about getting together. Not sure if he still wants to. I never know anymore. lol
I'm not sure what the plans are for the weekend. Wish I had a clue. I liked it when we planned things. I hate not planning things. He did too. Now...we never know. :(
I've got to stop this. Quit remembering the past.
He'll come to me when he needs me or wants me.
It's a matter of when or if.
Live Forever-
_BonnieJean_
This close -- to calling Adrienne! Falling apart...tonight we fall asleep in the same state of mind. ::sigh::
I always wait 10 minutes before I call him or text him.
Tonight..I have been waiting since 10. Still haven't done it..and I still want to. I can't. Just can't. Because I know...he doesn't feel the same. He knows how to get ahold of me if he wanted to. He's fine, Bonnie. He's fine.
No point in trying.
I seem better off when I am sick and take Benadryl or NyQuil...knocks me out. Keeps me from thinking.
I have been talking to Kari tonight. We have been realizing how insanly similar we are. It drives us nuts. My ((practically)) little sister is in South Dakota and I am here and she looks acts, and even SLEEPS like me! I'm planning on visiting when she graduates next year. I can't wait! :)
Today went prefectly fine. Nothing went wrong. Nothing. I realized how incredibly independent I have become. You would really be surprised.
I'm buying myself dinner. $15.00 for the Night at the Races. It's proceeds to to the American Heart Association or whatever. It should be a great night out with my friends from Kent. Rumor has it...FREE BEER! lol But thats NEXT Friday..I need plans for this Friday. Or whatever.
I know Scott mentioned something about getting together. Not sure if he still wants to. I never know anymore. lol
I'm not sure what the plans are for the weekend. Wish I had a clue. I liked it when we planned things. I hate not planning things. He did too. Now...we never know. :(
I've got to stop this. Quit remembering the past.
He'll come to me when he needs me or wants me.
It's a matter of when or if.
Live Forever-
_BonnieJean_
This close -- to calling Adrienne! Falling apart...tonight we fall asleep in the same state of mind. ::sigh::