3:30am is the worst time of the day

[try_no_more]

Everynight this past week at almost 3:30 am, life becomes so lonely. I am so tired during the day and afternoon, but once I get home, everything falls apart.

I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of holding my pillows at night. I'm tired of looking over and seeing everything belong to me.

I'm just so tired.
I've been belting it all out at night. Praying to God, asking Him to help me believe.

I'm tired of watching movies. There is nothing else to do.

Yes, it feels like life is over at night, but during the day, I don't give two shits about anything.

Why is nighttime soo hard??

God, I don't want to care anymore.
It's pointless.

I don't even know anymore how you feel.
You now have completely lost me.

[g o n e]

it's gonna hurt bad before it gets better

Tell me giving up is easy. Tell me letting go isn't that hard to do.
It has to be possible. I've done it before. I just need time.

How can you possibly let me go? I'm a great person. GREAT! UGH!
I don't need to ask questions. I should've have to.

The next time you want to talk to me...find me. Show me you care.

Live Forever-
_BonnieJean_