Apr 15, 2005 15:49
I don't feel comfortable around some people. Addressing this someone who has confused me and been on my mind lately, I guess it's okay now. I don't feel nearly as comfortable around you anymore. I'm not anyone different than what you've seen. Getting to know someone better should bring people closer, not drive them away and confuse them more. That means something.
Unlike the people we all wish we could be, I in no way possess the power of self-creation. I have been one person my whole life. Throughout everything that has hapened to me. This same person I may want to be one way, act another way, but I never will. I realize now that it's fact.
In this light, some things may never happen for me. But that is okay. There is no way to change that. It may suck for me . . . but for some other people - thing may never happen for them that happen to me.
I should focus on what I do have, not what I wish I did. This is the difference between positivity and reality and negativity.
Maybe this isn't the time. I know it's not. I'm just sick of it all. & I don't like being out there or in here.
It's all about comfort, internally.
It's all about recognition, internally and externally.
At this age it's not about who is a good person.