I would like to rid myself of school work.
Dear Diary,
These past few weeks have been nothing but lifeless days filled with worrying and stress because of the increasing amount of schoolwork that need be done. It is only the beginning of the second month of the last semester, and yet I feel like I have been in this semester for much longer. I don't know what it is that has been draining me, and keeping me less motivated for school. I would think it is SENIORITIS, but I have never been so uninspired for school my whole life. Just the first week and I was already... blah.
I even would not care if I got a QPI of 1 this semester.
Ok, maybe I would, but as long as I graduate already, I am fine. Maybe it's because I already know that I will be studying abroad next year, and that I don't really need my grades that badly anymore, because after studying graphic design and tryin to land graphic design jobs, all that would really matter is my portfolio. Who cares if I got Ds in stupid management subjects? I am applying as a graphic designer, not as an entrepreneur.
But, still.
I know I must do well, lest shame my family come graduation day. How terrible it would be to let them know that I spent my last semester of college slacking off and ending up having a cumulative QPI less than 3. I know, it could be much worse, but my parents are longing for me to get honors, which I really can't attain anymore, so the least I could do is show them a cumulative QPI of 3.00.
Oh, please. If only I could be happier than this. I need to be filled with a joyous spirit in order to want to strive harder.
God, please let me know that I will be happy.
God, please let me get that US visa that I so direly need so I can see Andrew again! :( I want to end this sadness called solitude. I just want to go and see him; this is the longest we've been apart. 6 months! Half a year. And soon to be one year, since the earliest we could meet (if I get a visa and get to travel to the States, that is) is in May. IF fate desires otherwise, and NOT give me my visa, it would be worse, and I could see him in June again, when he comes to visit me here.
ACK I miss him. Too much. :(
Now please excuse me as I try and use the Law of Attraction for this one big thing that I want so badly. And please pray that it works, because I desperately DESPERATELY want a US VISA. AAGHHHH.
These past few weeks have been nothing but lifeless days filled with worrying and stress because of the increasing amount of schoolwork that need be done. It is only the beginning of the second month of the last semester, and yet I feel like I have been in this semester for much longer. I don't know what it is that has been draining me, and keeping me less motivated for school. I would think it is SENIORITIS, but I have never been so uninspired for school my whole life. Just the first week and I was already... blah.
I even would not care if I got a QPI of 1 this semester.
Ok, maybe I would, but as long as I graduate already, I am fine. Maybe it's because I already know that I will be studying abroad next year, and that I don't really need my grades that badly anymore, because after studying graphic design and tryin to land graphic design jobs, all that would really matter is my portfolio. Who cares if I got Ds in stupid management subjects? I am applying as a graphic designer, not as an entrepreneur.
But, still.
I know I must do well, lest shame my family come graduation day. How terrible it would be to let them know that I spent my last semester of college slacking off and ending up having a cumulative QPI less than 3. I know, it could be much worse, but my parents are longing for me to get honors, which I really can't attain anymore, so the least I could do is show them a cumulative QPI of 3.00.
Oh, please. If only I could be happier than this. I need to be filled with a joyous spirit in order to want to strive harder.
God, please let me know that I will be happy.
God, please let me get that US visa that I so direly need so I can see Andrew again! :( I want to end this sadness called solitude. I just want to go and see him; this is the longest we've been apart. 6 months! Half a year. And soon to be one year, since the earliest we could meet (if I get a visa and get to travel to the States, that is) is in May. IF fate desires otherwise, and NOT give me my visa, it would be worse, and I could see him in June again, when he comes to visit me here.
ACK I miss him. Too much. :(
Now please excuse me as I try and use the Law of Attraction for this one big thing that I want so badly. And please pray that it works, because I desperately DESPERATELY want a US VISA. AAGHHHH.