well hello dear frindiau
so.....
this is my first update since last april.
a lot has changed in my life.
my life changed dramtically when i parted with my band which i miss, but i know it was the right decision.
a lot of people dont like me, for trying to do the right thing all the time, but some how i always let at least one person down.
yes....this makes me a bad person.
i had a job in hmv over christmas, a lot of hours and only xmas day off, now i hav a huge lump some of money. i bought my new york ticket, and i will be seeing both ali and chaz very shortly.
i am slowly getting a new band together, just practice to get through now.
i have more self confidence but lacking a lil hapiness cos i miss people that i dont matter too.
i know the ones who bitch behind my back, fuck you.
i discovered how false and selfish a huge majority of people are.
i bought loads of dvds and cd's with my hmv 30% staff sale.
designed many websites and done shit loads of artwork.
drawed loads.
became a better musician through intense practice.
went into hospital.
got the all clear from hospital.
feel betrayed for all the times iv been there for friends, who only seem to need me now when sumone better isnt available.
made the effort to build broken friendships just for excuse after excuse to be thrown in my face.
fed up of making the effort to pick up the phone, iv tried, but if i dont call im in the wrong, cos no one else can use a fone!
i have very few friends i consider close now.
i am happy however, cos im looking after myself for a change instead of everyone else.
good bye 2004. thanks for the ups and the downs.
xx
this is my first update since last april.
a lot has changed in my life.
my life changed dramtically when i parted with my band which i miss, but i know it was the right decision.
a lot of people dont like me, for trying to do the right thing all the time, but some how i always let at least one person down.
yes....this makes me a bad person.
i had a job in hmv over christmas, a lot of hours and only xmas day off, now i hav a huge lump some of money. i bought my new york ticket, and i will be seeing both ali and chaz very shortly.
i am slowly getting a new band together, just practice to get through now.
i have more self confidence but lacking a lil hapiness cos i miss people that i dont matter too.
i know the ones who bitch behind my back, fuck you.
i discovered how false and selfish a huge majority of people are.
i bought loads of dvds and cd's with my hmv 30% staff sale.
designed many websites and done shit loads of artwork.
drawed loads.
became a better musician through intense practice.
went into hospital.
got the all clear from hospital.
feel betrayed for all the times iv been there for friends, who only seem to need me now when sumone better isnt available.
made the effort to build broken friendships just for excuse after excuse to be thrown in my face.
fed up of making the effort to pick up the phone, iv tried, but if i dont call im in the wrong, cos no one else can use a fone!
i have very few friends i consider close now.
i am happy however, cos im looking after myself for a change instead of everyone else.
good bye 2004. thanks for the ups and the downs.
xx