Culture
Sometimes life can be extradordinarily more difficult than I originally had thought and it becomes tough to deal with. I feel like I'm one woman fighting a battle against millions of others.
I respect the Sikh religion. I love what it represents. I love how the expectation is set for me to spend my life learning. How can I really go wrong with that? I love learning and I'm glad that I'm a part of it.
In retrospect, I don't respect the culture and truly have no desire to be a part of its' characteristics. The culture contradicts everything that is dictated in religious works. Equality is not equality, but equality in the eyes of a man. One can learn under certain restrictions; otherwise, face being disowned. Loving thy parents has conditions as loving thy children. One loves them so long as they follow the rules that have been established. Everything has to do with who is going to judge you so one must be careful. I can honestly say that I'm so sick and tired of judgments being passed onto me, that I have no desire to be a part of it. I don't care for it and do things on my own accord. Of course, that gets me into trouble because of all these metamessages that result becaues of it. I should be concerned about how my family is being perceived, but I'm not. Not a single person in my extended family knows of my wonderful trip to Colorado. Not a single one. This is because, it is unheard of for an East Indian woman to go -alone- on a trip on her vacation. She takes her mother with her, sure. She can even be as fortunate as to taking a friend with her; however, going alone is taboo.
And I can say that it really is shit like this that I'm so sick and tired of. I wish I could easily leave it and create my own path. And I can, though my family suffers the consequences.
Or perhaps my opinions and thoughts are too ignorant. I've been shown how selfish I am with my thoughts. I mean, I may be this mature 22 year old, but I'm not. I'm far from it.
I respect the Sikh religion. I love what it represents. I love how the expectation is set for me to spend my life learning. How can I really go wrong with that? I love learning and I'm glad that I'm a part of it.
In retrospect, I don't respect the culture and truly have no desire to be a part of its' characteristics. The culture contradicts everything that is dictated in religious works. Equality is not equality, but equality in the eyes of a man. One can learn under certain restrictions; otherwise, face being disowned. Loving thy parents has conditions as loving thy children. One loves them so long as they follow the rules that have been established. Everything has to do with who is going to judge you so one must be careful. I can honestly say that I'm so sick and tired of judgments being passed onto me, that I have no desire to be a part of it. I don't care for it and do things on my own accord. Of course, that gets me into trouble because of all these metamessages that result becaues of it. I should be concerned about how my family is being perceived, but I'm not. Not a single person in my extended family knows of my wonderful trip to Colorado. Not a single one. This is because, it is unheard of for an East Indian woman to go -alone- on a trip on her vacation. She takes her mother with her, sure. She can even be as fortunate as to taking a friend with her; however, going alone is taboo.
And I can say that it really is shit like this that I'm so sick and tired of. I wish I could easily leave it and create my own path. And I can, though my family suffers the consequences.
Or perhaps my opinions and thoughts are too ignorant. I've been shown how selfish I am with my thoughts. I mean, I may be this mature 22 year old, but I'm not. I'm far from it.