hmmm.....
desided i might type a lil to get my mind off things.
been a lil upset i guess lately. i hate saying depressed. cuz who wants to say "yea i'm depressed" that's even more depressing. just sad. i'm taking 5htp. yea steadily becca.lol. i think it's helping. i've been shaky about everything. college especially. i'm forced into it. unless i move out. which i couldn't support myself i've already checked. but i think i'll be done with an AA in july next year. so that should come my parnets down. all i ever do is what they want for me. sometimes i think it will never satify them. so i'll be forced not to for once. which i hate doing. another thing is i think i got the "Lake Placid BLUES" if you all know what i mean. scratch that.. i don't think, i know. i go on a lot of trips... hmmm.. why? gee... someone else on my mind has me questioning things. which really didn't help today. some sides were shown that i wish i never saw. but needed to be known. everythings so blurry. or i try to explain and i can't. i'm not even sure what it all is. nothing is ever one thing. it's always a lot of things. just one thing that sets it all off. like a lighter to a bomb. and it's already exploded..
i'm rambling through the damage to see what i can salvage.
i hope i can find everything.
been a lil upset i guess lately. i hate saying depressed. cuz who wants to say "yea i'm depressed" that's even more depressing. just sad. i'm taking 5htp. yea steadily becca.lol. i think it's helping. i've been shaky about everything. college especially. i'm forced into it. unless i move out. which i couldn't support myself i've already checked. but i think i'll be done with an AA in july next year. so that should come my parnets down. all i ever do is what they want for me. sometimes i think it will never satify them. so i'll be forced not to for once. which i hate doing. another thing is i think i got the "Lake Placid BLUES" if you all know what i mean. scratch that.. i don't think, i know. i go on a lot of trips... hmmm.. why? gee... someone else on my mind has me questioning things. which really didn't help today. some sides were shown that i wish i never saw. but needed to be known. everythings so blurry. or i try to explain and i can't. i'm not even sure what it all is. nothing is ever one thing. it's always a lot of things. just one thing that sets it all off. like a lighter to a bomb. and it's already exploded..
i'm rambling through the damage to see what i can salvage.
i hope i can find everything.