JESUS WALKS
If there's one thing I learned this summer, there's this. Sometimes, the only person you can litteraly rely on is Jesus-Christ. I've become so aware of those moments, when all I can say is "God, please have my back in this".
As good christian kids, we know it, read it and talk about relying on God. But He's rarely the first one we think to call up to. We have the chain of command. "Mom!! Dad!! They can't? Let's call Jimmy. What about Laura? she's working?Try Jill then. There must be someone we can call." it happens almost instantly. " iN a jam? let's try this credit card".
Sometimes, i feel this cloudy feeling over me, the feeling that nothing's going to be alright. so I hug myself tightly and just rock back and forth. I relate so much to that song, that I want to sing it.
"i walk this lonely road, the only one that I've ever known....my Savior's the only one besides me". as teenagers, we worry about who's with whom, who did what and who didn't have the decency to do what.
But that's not tragic, just pathetic. None of us had to bury our parents, one after the other. we never had to scrunch our stomacks because we're so hungry, it's hard to stand up straight. We never...well...never mind.
Though life has good sides, tonight I can't help but think about all the bad, negative sides. Teh people I love will one day end up in a nursing home or worse. I will one day get taht phone call " I'm sorry to inform you that..."
I fear that I will one day have to go identify a body. I will go in for tests and there will be bad news. I will have to watch the people I care about become weaker and weaker. I see myself one day walking through the villages of Africa,and talking to people with AIDS. what am I going to say? It's gonna be okay? I mean, come on. Wake up and smell the coffee!!! For the christians, there's a better side. Waht about the other half that isn't Christian, what do they have to look forward to?
Christ promises to be there with us, alwasy. but sometimes I worry. I wonder about teh first time I'll have to done a dark outfit because I have to.
It's pathetic. I'm going all ecclesiastic on myself. I'm so sick of all of this.
I guess it makes heaven the more special, every time I think about this Life.
As good christian kids, we know it, read it and talk about relying on God. But He's rarely the first one we think to call up to. We have the chain of command. "Mom!! Dad!! They can't? Let's call Jimmy. What about Laura? she's working?Try Jill then. There must be someone we can call." it happens almost instantly. " iN a jam? let's try this credit card".
Sometimes, i feel this cloudy feeling over me, the feeling that nothing's going to be alright. so I hug myself tightly and just rock back and forth. I relate so much to that song, that I want to sing it.
"i walk this lonely road, the only one that I've ever known....my Savior's the only one besides me". as teenagers, we worry about who's with whom, who did what and who didn't have the decency to do what.
But that's not tragic, just pathetic. None of us had to bury our parents, one after the other. we never had to scrunch our stomacks because we're so hungry, it's hard to stand up straight. We never...well...never mind.
Though life has good sides, tonight I can't help but think about all the bad, negative sides. Teh people I love will one day end up in a nursing home or worse. I will one day get taht phone call " I'm sorry to inform you that..."
I fear that I will one day have to go identify a body. I will go in for tests and there will be bad news. I will have to watch the people I care about become weaker and weaker. I see myself one day walking through the villages of Africa,and talking to people with AIDS. what am I going to say? It's gonna be okay? I mean, come on. Wake up and smell the coffee!!! For the christians, there's a better side. Waht about the other half that isn't Christian, what do they have to look forward to?
Christ promises to be there with us, alwasy. but sometimes I worry. I wonder about teh first time I'll have to done a dark outfit because I have to.
It's pathetic. I'm going all ecclesiastic on myself. I'm so sick of all of this.
I guess it makes heaven the more special, every time I think about this Life.