May 04, 2005 23:09
This is an actual spur of the moment speech by me. If you don't believe me, ask Jason Meeks. It's just how I feel and I mean every single word of it. (Sorry to the non-crewbies, it won't mean as much to you)
You know, I used to be like you. I had a whole bunch of sources of motivation but I changed last year. Probably since coxswains have to motivate themselves as well as the crew and when you motivate someone you can't be lying. Everything you say and everything you believe to be possible you must believe completely yourself. But I used to pull for my boat mates and I used to pull harder when the coaches were looking and I used to pull hard in front of pretty girls, but I realized, that none of that really matters. I pull hard in front of pretty girls because that's what I always do. I can't fool a coach because a coach knows who pulls and who doesn't always. Trust me, it's so easy to see when you're not in the boat. So I wouldn't be fooling anyone. I realized early this year that I can't pull for my boat mates because
I want to win so much more than them
I want to be amazing
I want my boat to be the fastest ever
I want to fly
and I knew, if I just pulled for my boat mates, I could only pull as hard as my boat mates, and I want more. So I pull for myself
I pull to be the very best
I pull so that when people see me they think, "Damn, he's small but he is FAST"
I pull to push my body to the limit and then go beyond it, to keep pushing my limit and see how good I can really be.
I pull because I want to win, to achieve something so rare and spectacular and beautiful that few dare to dream it. I know that I can only do that if I pull for that goal; for myself.
I don't pull because I have to
I pull cause I want to more than anything else in the world.
I'm not saying that's the way it has to be. I wish to God everyone wanted it just as much as me but I know that's impossible. So I just keep giving all I have to give, and hoping it's enough. If I can get you all to just want it half as much as I do
I'll be happy