A ridiculous number of random ass things
Myspace is blocked at this library. I mention it not because I have a myspace page (I don't and am loathe to create one) but because I wanted to post a picture of the hands my future children will inherit....from their sexy drummer guy father, lol
At the moment, I am completely content to build this fantasy into something it will never be and something that I will never attempt to make it into. Cause yeah. He's just that delicious. The things I'd like him to do to me can not be placed in public posts....lol...what kinda girl do you think I am? hee hee hee
(besides a horny and ridiculous one)
Anyway....
Miracles happened. Prayer works. I'll skip all the crazy stressful things that happened prior, and just say I found a place to live. Then more miracles allowed me to put down a deposit and sign the lease. Moving stuff tomorrow and this weekend. Thank you Jesus.
I like my new job. For the first time I feel secure enough in where I am professionally (in the immediate income sense) that I can focus on networking, and other projects, and actually developing hobbies and a social life. I got the "diversity is important to me, and I'm pushing to make a bigger impact with it in the theater as a whole, but I just wanted to make sure that you knew that I knew cause we're all hoping that you don't quit" talk today.
LOL. Hilarious. Though I must say, it came up in conversation and that's what prompted it, but I thought it was much more earnest and tactful than the boss who was speeding along the highway with me locked in her car who told me that their committment to diversity was me and not only was I hired to do 25 thousand things, but in addition specifically to convince women of color not to hate the organization, and that I should be clear that was an important part of my job. lol *smh*
But anyway, I like it. I have to get used to not being on the bottom though. I don't have to answer the phones, I don't even have to take messages for people. People actually report to me, (formally and not just informally) and my opinions are valued and important, and it's only my first week! I met this great black woman playwright who teaches at American U who I'll be working with who has very similar play-building interests as me. I'm stroking her for a mentor, but making myself take my time about it.
There's a lot that the organization can offer me as an artist and theater professional, and there's a lot that I can offer them. It's been a good first week. Despite my housing drama (and oh, it has been dramatic!)
Once I'm finished moving, I'm looking at:
1. Buying a car
2. Applying to be on the board of directors of a theater in the area
3. Working (actively) on a project
4. Getting laid
5. Not having my parents as my primary emergency contact (not because I don't love them, but because if there was an emergency they are six and a half hours away.)
In that order.
Well, maybe switch the last two. I can wait on getting laid if I'm getting a little lip/hand/finger play (not mine)...lol
I am re-reading "The Little Prince" for work, and if you haven't read it, it is really a remarkable book. And a fast read. The first time I read it, I read it in French so it took me a bit longer :) But it really is something. I'm (re)taken with both the metaphors and the direct messages. If you haven't read it, you ought to.
Two more thoughts:
Isn't it strange how we (re)enact imperialist and colonizing ideals in our relationships with people? Even outside of those who do so because of race/class/etc differences between partners-- but on the most basic of levels? More later perhaps, when I can better articulate and give examples.
AND
For the sake of argument, what is there to be gained by being self-righteous about being oppressed? We get so angry if anyone, in their own struggle for rights, validation and visibility even references the civil rights movement for example, let alone uses it as a comparison. (And I get that, because I can't say that I'm comfortable with that) But I think it keeps us playing a dangerous game. The "you'll never be a bigger victim then me and my people" game. Of course folks want to compare their struggles to the civil rights movement, why wouldn't they? From the outside, people want to draw from that strength, that perceived unity and power. Why aren't we using that desire to enlist allies, and remind people that our struggle isn't over? That by helping us they help themselves?
And frankly, why not use it to remind US that our struggle isn't over?
At the moment, I am completely content to build this fantasy into something it will never be and something that I will never attempt to make it into. Cause yeah. He's just that delicious. The things I'd like him to do to me can not be placed in public posts....lol...what kinda girl do you think I am? hee hee hee
(besides a horny and ridiculous one)
Anyway....
Miracles happened. Prayer works. I'll skip all the crazy stressful things that happened prior, and just say I found a place to live. Then more miracles allowed me to put down a deposit and sign the lease. Moving stuff tomorrow and this weekend. Thank you Jesus.
I like my new job. For the first time I feel secure enough in where I am professionally (in the immediate income sense) that I can focus on networking, and other projects, and actually developing hobbies and a social life. I got the "diversity is important to me, and I'm pushing to make a bigger impact with it in the theater as a whole, but I just wanted to make sure that you knew that I knew cause we're all hoping that you don't quit" talk today.
LOL. Hilarious. Though I must say, it came up in conversation and that's what prompted it, but I thought it was much more earnest and tactful than the boss who was speeding along the highway with me locked in her car who told me that their committment to diversity was me and not only was I hired to do 25 thousand things, but in addition specifically to convince women of color not to hate the organization, and that I should be clear that was an important part of my job. lol *smh*
But anyway, I like it. I have to get used to not being on the bottom though. I don't have to answer the phones, I don't even have to take messages for people. People actually report to me, (formally and not just informally) and my opinions are valued and important, and it's only my first week! I met this great black woman playwright who teaches at American U who I'll be working with who has very similar play-building interests as me. I'm stroking her for a mentor, but making myself take my time about it.
There's a lot that the organization can offer me as an artist and theater professional, and there's a lot that I can offer them. It's been a good first week. Despite my housing drama (and oh, it has been dramatic!)
Once I'm finished moving, I'm looking at:
1. Buying a car
2. Applying to be on the board of directors of a theater in the area
3. Working (actively) on a project
4. Getting laid
5. Not having my parents as my primary emergency contact (not because I don't love them, but because if there was an emergency they are six and a half hours away.)
In that order.
Well, maybe switch the last two. I can wait on getting laid if I'm getting a little lip/hand/finger play (not mine)...lol
I am re-reading "The Little Prince" for work, and if you haven't read it, it is really a remarkable book. And a fast read. The first time I read it, I read it in French so it took me a bit longer :) But it really is something. I'm (re)taken with both the metaphors and the direct messages. If you haven't read it, you ought to.
Two more thoughts:
Isn't it strange how we (re)enact imperialist and colonizing ideals in our relationships with people? Even outside of those who do so because of race/class/etc differences between partners-- but on the most basic of levels? More later perhaps, when I can better articulate and give examples.
AND
For the sake of argument, what is there to be gained by being self-righteous about being oppressed? We get so angry if anyone, in their own struggle for rights, validation and visibility even references the civil rights movement for example, let alone uses it as a comparison. (And I get that, because I can't say that I'm comfortable with that) But I think it keeps us playing a dangerous game. The "you'll never be a bigger victim then me and my people" game. Of course folks want to compare their struggles to the civil rights movement, why wouldn't they? From the outside, people want to draw from that strength, that perceived unity and power. Why aren't we using that desire to enlist allies, and remind people that our struggle isn't over? That by helping us they help themselves?
And frankly, why not use it to remind US that our struggle isn't over?