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Oct 03, 2011 01:20

[Voice - Locked from Al, Winry, Gracia, and Elicia]

This might seem like a weird question, but I need to ask.

A lot of people - kids, even - act like they're fine with death and killing. The draft taught me that much. And around here dying doesn't even seem to matter because you just come back anyway. Is that what makes it- [Not okay, he can't ( Read more... )

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 4 2011, 04:44:27 UTC
I'd hardly consider it stupid. What mortal hasn't wondered that very thing?

Not always. Situations do exist where the choice comes down to only those two options, although some may argue otherwise. But if you do see a third, then by all means, take it if you wish.

You misunderstand, however. It is frighteningly easy to take a life merely in the physical sense. Mortals and even gods can be eliminated with nothing more than the correct swing of a blade--or a proper prick of a needle. The aftermath of killing, however, is much more difficult to bear. The understanding that a person has erased a singular existence that is irreplacable in the entire universe. The laws of Heaven go so far as to mandate that gods cannot kill any being, because all life is precious. Understanding that and shedding blood despite changes a person without fail. And it takes strength to not be destroyed as part of that change, either by being overwhelmed with guilt, or losing oneself to bloodlust. But I cannot say that a person becomes stronger for killing, even if they are capable of doing so as they see necessary.

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[voice] truthget October 5 2011, 02:55:36 UTC
[That's a lot to take in, and... Ed can't deny that it makes an awful lot of sense. Even dismissing the heaven and god talk - meeting Truth itself ruins all desire to believe in such things - the ability to overcome difficult choices and failures is a part of what makes someone strong. Watching people die is hard enough, but the ability to take a life yourself? Is the strength to overcome that pain and guilt admirable, and if so, is it more admirable than sparing the life you could easily have taken?

It's a hard concept. Alchemy is life, and to take a life, extinguish it, is a crime, even if it isn't punished by Truth the way that creating life is. And it's something he's going to have to think about a hell of a lot more.]

...Part of what worries me is that people sometimes say that it gets easier, the more you do it. Like practicing any other talent or skill. I can't even imagine killing once, but to do it over and over...

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 5 2011, 05:01:51 UTC
[Ah, but Homura cannot dismiss either gods or Heavens any more than he can the blood staining his own sword. They are as much a part of him as the burden of countless lives taken over the course of centuries, and it all allows him to speak with a quiet confidence.]

Do you know what happens if you cut into flesh, let the wound heal, and then cut into it again, repeating the process over and over?

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[voice] truthget October 6 2011, 04:10:54 UTC
What the hell?

[That sounds kind of nasty and horrifying and who would do that.]

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 6 2011, 06:23:37 UTC
[Homura can't help but laugh at the boy's reaction to a harmless question.]

Don't get caught up in the imagery. The idea is relevent.

You see, at first, the wound will ache and bleed. But as time goes on and the injuries continue to amount, the flesh will deaden and scar. To protect itself, the body forms callouses from its own tissues, and in time, that layer can become thick enough to prevent a person from even feeling the cut at all.

In that sense, killing does indeed become easier with time and repetition.

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[voice] truthget October 7 2011, 07:38:46 UTC
By using that comparison, even if you get used to it, you're still hurting yourself every time you do it.

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 10 2011, 05:37:45 UTC
That could well be, I suppose. It's simply the most appropriate comparison to describe my own experience.

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[voice] truthget October 10 2011, 17:12:58 UTC
And you're okay with that?

[Or- unaffected? No, he can't believe that...]

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 10 2011, 17:14:59 UTC
As I said, it was a matter of survival. And after five hundred years as a god of war, I would say that I am well scarred.

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[voice] truthget October 10 2011, 17:24:16 UTC
[Five hundred--]

You, a god?

[Okay wow, this is his first meeting of a self-pronounced god, and the very concept of it is... bwuuuuuh.]

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 10 2011, 17:26:29 UTC
Toushin Homura Taishi to be formal, although that title no longer truly applies.

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[voice] truthget October 12 2011, 01:10:13 UTC
What do you mean? You were a god, but you're not anymore?

[This conversation is still surreal.]

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 17 2011, 13:56:51 UTC
No, I am still very much a god. But I rebelled against the Heavens, so it is quite likely my title was stripped away.

That, along with the fact that I died, makes my formal name inconsequential at best.

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[voice] truthget October 18 2011, 21:02:12 UTC
I didn't think gods could die.

[Mind you he's never believed they were real, either.]

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Re: [voice] screwthegods October 19 2011, 04:50:34 UTC
They are certainly more difficult to kill. Gods don't die merely by growing old, and are immune to any illnesses. Depending on their strength, they may also have other shields as well.

But they can die, regardless.

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[voice] truthget October 20 2011, 06:22:48 UTC
Don't take this the wrong way, but that's pretty hard to swallow for someone like me.

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