I think I should write
I think I am going to start writing again. I miss the release that I used to use.
So here is my release today:
Brett, two things that drive me nuts Getting mad at me for money when I am doing everything I can to help. Stop blaming me. Then you want to go hang out with guys and have a straight guy life since you won't come out. If he is that good of a guy he wouldnt care if you are gay or straight. So why should I be okay with it if you would never give me the same. If I didnt tell people I was gay and went to hang out with them you would be freaking. It is okay to have friends but it is not okay to lie. You are invited to everything I do. Why do you need a night out with the guys. Aren't I one of the guys? It is very hurtful to me, that I cant be one of the guys to in your opinion. I dont have this right I dont get this freedom. You say I control you, but you are wrong you control me. Dont you really love me. It is sad!
I am strong and I will survive. I will give you freedom and I will take mine. These are my only options and I will follow through. It is just sad I am put in this place.
Your friends always come first. One thing you can't say about me since I left my friends to live by you.
So here is my release today:
Brett, two things that drive me nuts Getting mad at me for money when I am doing everything I can to help. Stop blaming me. Then you want to go hang out with guys and have a straight guy life since you won't come out. If he is that good of a guy he wouldnt care if you are gay or straight. So why should I be okay with it if you would never give me the same. If I didnt tell people I was gay and went to hang out with them you would be freaking. It is okay to have friends but it is not okay to lie. You are invited to everything I do. Why do you need a night out with the guys. Aren't I one of the guys? It is very hurtful to me, that I cant be one of the guys to in your opinion. I dont have this right I dont get this freedom. You say I control you, but you are wrong you control me. Dont you really love me. It is sad!
I am strong and I will survive. I will give you freedom and I will take mine. These are my only options and I will follow through. It is just sad I am put in this place.
Your friends always come first. One thing you can't say about me since I left my friends to live by you.