I had no idea it got that bad. I always use to be terrified that the next time I would call you I would hear that you died. I would freak out every time your phone got disconnected. Its fucking scary that you came that close to dieing. I fucking hate thinking about it. Im not going to touch alcohol again. I cant count the amount of times its fucked up my life. Its a good time but its just not worth it. If you cant get a job let me know and I can help you out. Even if I dont have money I know plenty of "Kinda legal" ways to get money that are risk free. I would like to see you succeed especially now that your trying to have a kid. I figure the worst thing for me right now is time. If I stay busy Im ok but its those time when im alone with nothing to do that eat at me. Im more worried about months or years from now when my life isnt fucked up than right now. When Im not watching what Iv worked for for the past year fall appart. With meth I could just avoid the people and places I knew. Alcohol is everywhere. I dont know. I should probably go back to AA or something. Im rambeling now so I will shut up.
Im not going to touch alcohol again. I cant count the amount of times its fucked up my life. Its a good time but its just not worth it.
If you cant get a job let me know and I can help you out. Even if I dont have money I know plenty of "Kinda legal" ways to get money that are risk free. I would like to see you succeed especially now that your trying to have a kid.
I figure the worst thing for me right now is time. If I stay busy Im ok but its those time when im alone with nothing to do that eat at me. Im more worried about months or years from now when my life isnt fucked up than right now. When Im not watching what Iv worked for for the past year fall appart. With meth I could just avoid the people and places I knew. Alcohol is everywhere. I dont know. I should probably go back to AA or something. Im rambeling now so I will shut up.
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