A good night and a not so good night
Yesterday I drove an hour and a half away to Keene, New Hampsire to stay over Emily's. Emily and I met on myspace and a couple of weeks ago met up in Manchester and had a really good time. So I stayed over her house last night. Shes bi and we both want each other but I decided that i want to take things slow because we just met. Neither of us has made a move but have talked about it. Im definitly crushing on her but i need to get to know her better. shes sooo gorgeous that im actually intimidated by it. its totally fine though, i'll have a perfect body soon because ive been working out everyday lol. i feel alot better about myself because im working a shit ton, running and working out everyday, and reading. i havent been drinking as often as i used to because everytime i do i end up having bad experiences. last thursday jack, jesseye, and I got drunk at her house. i had only eatin a bagel the whole day but didnt realize it after i had started drinking. I took like 4 shots in a row and then later chugged the bottle of vodka. I decided that i had to leave because i had work in the morning and everyone fought with me to try to get my keys. I tried to get them back and started freaking out and screaming at everyone and crying. I was blacked out. i only remember parts of it. finally i was thrown in my backseat by someone and jesseye drove my car home and my friends followed to take her home once we got to my house. the next morning i woke up and felt fine but once i started driving to work i felt woozy. After the first hour of being at work, i threw up on the floor. my assistant mananger told me i couldnt leave until someone came to cover so i spent the next 3 hours in and out of the bathroom throwing up 20+ times. it was terrible. i was pail and weak and my eyes were bloodshot. i looked like the living dead and i hated having to be at work becuz i could barely move. whatever at least i got paid for throwing up hahaha. Then i went home, forced salad down my throat, took some tylenol, and slept. i woke up and felt 20 times better. after that i dont want to drink anymore. maybe every once and a while i will of course, but slowely, and i'll definitly eat before hand next time.