o.O Wow, it's um... been a while ^^;
Well, no one reads this lol Ah well, I don't care anymore. At least I have a way of telling people my story of life and feelings...
Although no one reads this I can be ignorant and think people do, I know I know not a good way to think really but eh, I don't care.
Recently I have had such a hard time - I have told my mum so many things about me (Ie: My bisexuality, hidden relationships and my fears) I told her so much about me it scared me beyond belief. I told her how the night before I had cried for hours up in my room as I thought of how much I hated myself, how I'm afraid for her and my family (My grandfather in particular at the moment)I told her about a 2 month relationship I had that I didn't tell her about at the time, and I told her about me being bisexual. She thinks that I'm thinking about my sexuality, whereas I feel I know (But she doesn't need to know that just yet)
I felt good after I told her, sure I made her cry but she knows now.
On bad news, I have found out that my lil peanut may still be doing self harm... after me nearly destroying our friendship. She seems to do it out of boredom, loneliness and even happiness. I can't do anything else to help her, but I feel helpless not being able to. I want to help her, I want to help her so badly but I'm unsure of what to do now because she still can't seem to come to me. It annoys and upsets me that even after all of this she can't talk to me...
Later days xXx
Although no one reads this I can be ignorant and think people do, I know I know not a good way to think really but eh, I don't care.
Recently I have had such a hard time - I have told my mum so many things about me (Ie: My bisexuality, hidden relationships and my fears) I told her so much about me it scared me beyond belief. I told her how the night before I had cried for hours up in my room as I thought of how much I hated myself, how I'm afraid for her and my family (My grandfather in particular at the moment)I told her about a 2 month relationship I had that I didn't tell her about at the time, and I told her about me being bisexual. She thinks that I'm thinking about my sexuality, whereas I feel I know (But she doesn't need to know that just yet)
I felt good after I told her, sure I made her cry but she knows now.
On bad news, I have found out that my lil peanut may still be doing self harm... after me nearly destroying our friendship. She seems to do it out of boredom, loneliness and even happiness. I can't do anything else to help her, but I feel helpless not being able to. I want to help her, I want to help her so badly but I'm unsure of what to do now because she still can't seem to come to me. It annoys and upsets me that even after all of this she can't talk to me...
Later days xXx