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RuunFast
My new lj screenname, however, seeing that the decline of livejournal is coming you do not have to add me if you do not want to. I might not even post for a few weeks! Months! But I will post in my last entry for this journal about what I've been going through, and hopefully your "image" of me might be enlightened, but I can't be "fo sho" about it.
I am a Christian. I love God and I am blessed that Jesus died on the cross for the sake of seeing me saved. I still hold that thought deep in my heart and I feel inspired whenever I hear it from the depths of my soul. However, lately I have been the most un-Christian guy that you would ever meet. I did not pray, I did not read the Bible, and I did not have that happiness that I had before. I sinned! I lusted! I swore! I basically flipped off life and God and ran off my walk with Jesus into a pit of comfy pillows that would soon impale me with nails and other sharp objects in due time. I did not care that I was missing church. I didn't care about anything really! I just thought about this school year and how hard SATs would be. I didn't realize how hopeless life could be until today, and God showed me the errors of my ways. I prayed during school today. I couldn't handle how life could be so stressful, I didn't understand why I couldn't have the same attitude towards life as I did last year. I realize now that without God, there is no life. Without a purpose, there is no need for existence. A thousand times I've failed, still your mercy remains. Thank you God for being a merciful God. My burdens have been placed in His hands, and I will trust in Him.
Can you believe it? A source of praise not coming from a spiritual high, just out of need.
Thank you Lord.