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Have you ever been let down before? When someone you know just can't pull through to help you? Or wait, no how about this. Have you ever been treated like trash? You know, the piece of trash that is always the subject of complaints, the source of criticism, and the one thing everyone can do without.
Ok, my last post was referring to what my basketball coach said to me. He told me straight up that I had no chance of making varsity basketball and that he would never put me on any of his teams. Sure, he gave me an option to be a varsity manager, but that isn't what I was aiming for at all. One of the goals that I posted earlier this year was to make the varsity basketball team as a junior. I failed badly enough for my coach to tell me 4 months in advance that I can't make the team.
"Your defense is terrible" "Your passing is terrible" "Your entire game is horrendous" "You got a 3.8? Your a failure!" I hear all of these remarks from my friends, my mom, and definitely my critics. I strive to do the best that I can do, but I still hear these things. Maybe its because they're trying to be brutally honest, but they always say the same thing. No matter how much I improve, they always have something bad to say about me. I could get a steal, a block, whatever, and they'll still criticize me for my bad defense. I could get a 4.0 and my mom will still complain how I couldn't do better.
Its all very frustrating.
I'm going to pray for these thoughts that my pessimistic view of things could go away.
Ok, my last post was referring to what my basketball coach said to me. He told me straight up that I had no chance of making varsity basketball and that he would never put me on any of his teams. Sure, he gave me an option to be a varsity manager, but that isn't what I was aiming for at all. One of the goals that I posted earlier this year was to make the varsity basketball team as a junior. I failed badly enough for my coach to tell me 4 months in advance that I can't make the team.
"Your defense is terrible" "Your passing is terrible" "Your entire game is horrendous" "You got a 3.8? Your a failure!" I hear all of these remarks from my friends, my mom, and definitely my critics. I strive to do the best that I can do, but I still hear these things. Maybe its because they're trying to be brutally honest, but they always say the same thing. No matter how much I improve, they always have something bad to say about me. I could get a steal, a block, whatever, and they'll still criticize me for my bad defense. I could get a 4.0 and my mom will still complain how I couldn't do better.
Its all very frustrating.
I'm going to pray for these thoughts that my pessimistic view of things could go away.