Pursuit of Love - 12/26/12
Yes, I took a few months off from focusing on much else aside from the pursuit of love. I thought I found the right partner for me, but she changed her tune midstream and made up excuses re why it's more difficult to have a 2nd baby (she already has one) with a woman than a man. *shrug* To me, a sperm bank seems a lot simpler. Anyhows, she told me she didn't want to date other women, but wanted to continue dating men for a few months and if she wouldn't find one and she said she probably wouldn't considering she'd been looking for 1.5 years and still hadn't, than she'd date only me. I dropped out - wasn't in a mood to be strung along and used like a doormat.
I did find another woman who I got along really well with - 4 - 5 hours of non-stop fun conversation on our first two dates. Too bad for me she is way too polyamorous for me - has 2 boyfriends and wants more. WTF? I am looking for someone more monogamous and less disease-prone.
I am seeing a cop who is cute and very romantic. She wants to be an occasional fuck-buddy in the fantasy-land she wants to create with me as escapes from her overly-stressful reality. We've had 2 dates. They were nice enough. She's funny and fun, smart enough, and WOW the things she texts to me in her fantasy-land mode make me cry in a heartfelt way. I've never had anyone write to me as beautifully and poetically as she does. She works a lot of overtime and has other commitments so it's rare I can see her, but I'm sure occasional sex with a cop will be welcome until if and when I find someone who can have a real relationship with me. I was glad she made it clear to me I can only be a secondary relationship for her, as she already has a primary relationship with someone. And I was clear to her that I am currently interesting in finding a woman to have a one-on-one relationship with, and since we aren't on the same page that way, that she should be aware that I plan to continue looking for a woman to have a one-on-one thing with. She's fine with that and said she'd feel honored to be just a friend who walks by my side through life for as long as I like if I were to find someone whom I can have something more meaningful with than her.
At present, me thinks myself 40% straight and 60% gay. Currently seeing only women to try everything out. I've tried one-on-one with different men, a relationship with a woman who was married to a man while I had a boyfriend... last stop: one-on-one with a woman.
I was almost able to try a 3-some with two women a couple of weekends ago, but my partner in crime fucked it up by coerce-raping the woman we found whom she'd been with before 3 years ago. The woman just wasn't into her anymore (likely due to realizing she is a manipulative bitch). At first, I started talking with the woman about the books in her bookshelf which I had read. She was all about that and warmed up to me quickly, excited to talk with me. My partner in crime apparently got jealous and started throwing herself physically at the other woman. The other woman kept pushing her away, making it clear to her she wasn't into her. After awhile, my partner in crime was not having that (she really is a manipulative bitch who doesn't take no for an answer, but I tolerate her on occasion because she keeps contacting me and I've never met anyone like her before... she's looking for a well-to-do bi or gay woman who she can turn into her codependent emotional puppet... that aint me... I'm too independent-by-nature, but it's interesting to understand her tactics... I think I've figured her all out and will ignore her for now on) and ended up going down on the other woman while the other woman showed no, none-whatsoever, reaction. It was a mess... but an unpleasantly interesting thing to watch as a Sociologist, none-the-less. I've never seen anything like that before, and hope I never do again.
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Recently, I started chatting up a woman who reminds me both emotionally and looks-wise of my ex Kat who I was with for five years. We should be having our first date soonish. I loved everything about my now ex Kat, so if this chick is a lot like her, things should go swimmingly.
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I did find another woman who I got along really well with - 4 - 5 hours of non-stop fun conversation on our first two dates. Too bad for me she is way too polyamorous for me - has 2 boyfriends and wants more. WTF? I am looking for someone more monogamous and less disease-prone.
I am seeing a cop who is cute and very romantic. She wants to be an occasional fuck-buddy in the fantasy-land she wants to create with me as escapes from her overly-stressful reality. We've had 2 dates. They were nice enough. She's funny and fun, smart enough, and WOW the things she texts to me in her fantasy-land mode make me cry in a heartfelt way. I've never had anyone write to me as beautifully and poetically as she does. She works a lot of overtime and has other commitments so it's rare I can see her, but I'm sure occasional sex with a cop will be welcome until if and when I find someone who can have a real relationship with me. I was glad she made it clear to me I can only be a secondary relationship for her, as she already has a primary relationship with someone. And I was clear to her that I am currently interesting in finding a woman to have a one-on-one relationship with, and since we aren't on the same page that way, that she should be aware that I plan to continue looking for a woman to have a one-on-one thing with. She's fine with that and said she'd feel honored to be just a friend who walks by my side through life for as long as I like if I were to find someone whom I can have something more meaningful with than her.
At present, me thinks myself 40% straight and 60% gay. Currently seeing only women to try everything out. I've tried one-on-one with different men, a relationship with a woman who was married to a man while I had a boyfriend... last stop: one-on-one with a woman.
I was almost able to try a 3-some with two women a couple of weekends ago, but my partner in crime fucked it up by coerce-raping the woman we found whom she'd been with before 3 years ago. The woman just wasn't into her anymore (likely due to realizing she is a manipulative bitch). At first, I started talking with the woman about the books in her bookshelf which I had read. She was all about that and warmed up to me quickly, excited to talk with me. My partner in crime apparently got jealous and started throwing herself physically at the other woman. The other woman kept pushing her away, making it clear to her she wasn't into her. After awhile, my partner in crime was not having that (she really is a manipulative bitch who doesn't take no for an answer, but I tolerate her on occasion because she keeps contacting me and I've never met anyone like her before... she's looking for a well-to-do bi or gay woman who she can turn into her codependent emotional puppet... that aint me... I'm too independent-by-nature, but it's interesting to understand her tactics... I think I've figured her all out and will ignore her for now on) and ended up going down on the other woman while the other woman showed no, none-whatsoever, reaction. It was a mess... but an unpleasantly interesting thing to watch as a Sociologist, none-the-less. I've never seen anything like that before, and hope I never do again.
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Recently, I started chatting up a woman who reminds me both emotionally and looks-wise of my ex Kat who I was with for five years. We should be having our first date soonish. I loved everything about my now ex Kat, so if this chick is a lot like her, things should go swimmingly.
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