thoughts concealed

[trusthesewings]

thoughts concealed in a mind
lips sealed
heavy words unspoken
to ears that fear what they would hear
innate trait to which I can and can't relate
she says nothing
just for me
confessions are confessed only through question
that I haven't the will to express
that she would like to avoid to address

in her eyes i see thoughts concealed
convention causes an intervention in the way I choose to think
and always on the brink of almost beginning to cry
when I think about my love embracing another guy
but "shush" i say
tell those thoughts to go away
kiss away the pain
kiss away the pain

she loves me like she says she does
but how soon could her love dissipate?
as soon as she finds something grander
as soon as she can't relate
so easily love can go astray
is it more or less than yesterday
we hold to substance
but all substances deplead
attachment is a fear when you've lost what you had for so long

I don't want to lose her
I feel I want her to be my own
I fear that one day she'll be gone

because love is just a phase and relations just a maze

I feel I want her forever
and then remind myself that forever is just fantasy
I want her to want only me
but still remain individual and free
and while my love for her continues to grow
if she asked for me to be only hers, I would still say no.