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[trumpetwhore]

Sometimes I feel like its hard to breath. I don't like being a lj user thats always on rollarcoasters and dramatic and stuff, but i feel like nothing has gone my way. i'm graduating this year and i feel as if it doesn't matter to anyone. i had an absolutely horrible time at the formal. i hate how clinton compares me to this girl from high school. i know i can't dance. my mom spent all this money on me for my LAST formal ever, erin made me look great and i was ready to have the time of my life and it all just deflated like a balloon with some of the comments clinton made. i know he was drunk, but part of me makes me feel worse that he was. i'm just so crushed that that was my last formal and thats how i felt for 3 of the hours there.
i don't matter. i will never be enough. I will never have a true best friend like i feel like everyone i concider my good friend has. i will always feel left out. i will always feel like i'm not liked. i dont know what i do so wrong. i just want to be able to smile and mean it. i feel fake. i feel so empty inside. its incredibly hard
i can't breathe :-(