is this year over yet?
Wow, over a month since I've last written in here.
AP's are over, test wise anyways. Still got to do that debate and other such things. School has been school. No updates on that since almost everyone in this journal is there along with me. This month has just been and will continue to be one big ball of stress. Still have to keep my math and chem grades up, guard and the incoming freshmen, getting money for banquet, WE tryouts, and such. Nothing compared to a lot of people, but this is my life. I feel very nuetral and dead at the moment; no feeling whatsoever. In a way it's nice. None of that confusing stuff like boys, prom, parents, and friends going on at the moment. Unfortunetly by the time I'm done writing this it will all come back. Lately certain thoughts have been taking precedence in my brain. I don't feel like being talkative and giggly or anythng like that. Some days I just want to sit by myself and become invisible. I have finally had time to sit and read what I want for a change. I like getting immersed in the fictional reality becuse sometimes it seems so much nicer then the true reality. Alright I'm going to talk about something I'm a little disapppointed in myself for worrying about. I hate sounding shallow, but this is exactly how it's going to sound so don't think I'm turning into a shallow person (or you knoe what, just ignore it because I don;t care at the moment). I'm worried about prom. I know, "That's what she's worried about? Some stupid dance?" Yeah well it's true. I haven't gone to a high school dance yet, but this is one I really want to go to. It doesn't look like it is going to happen though. Just once I would like to go shopping with my mom for a dress to something fancy. Just once I would like to be treated like any other girl would be on that "magical" night. Unfortunetly such miracles are in short supply in Aliso Viejo. Maybe if I went to Antarctica (oooo humor...feeling is returning!). Well I feel a little better getting that off my chest. Ok now Im done. Congratulations if you read through all that. Now if you don;t think I'm shallow and vain you get an extra point.
AP's are over, test wise anyways. Still got to do that debate and other such things. School has been school. No updates on that since almost everyone in this journal is there along with me. This month has just been and will continue to be one big ball of stress. Still have to keep my math and chem grades up, guard and the incoming freshmen, getting money for banquet, WE tryouts, and such. Nothing compared to a lot of people, but this is my life. I feel very nuetral and dead at the moment; no feeling whatsoever. In a way it's nice. None of that confusing stuff like boys, prom, parents, and friends going on at the moment. Unfortunetly by the time I'm done writing this it will all come back. Lately certain thoughts have been taking precedence in my brain. I don't feel like being talkative and giggly or anythng like that. Some days I just want to sit by myself and become invisible. I have finally had time to sit and read what I want for a change. I like getting immersed in the fictional reality becuse sometimes it seems so much nicer then the true reality. Alright I'm going to talk about something I'm a little disapppointed in myself for worrying about. I hate sounding shallow, but this is exactly how it's going to sound so don't think I'm turning into a shallow person (or you knoe what, just ignore it because I don;t care at the moment). I'm worried about prom. I know, "That's what she's worried about? Some stupid dance?" Yeah well it's true. I haven't gone to a high school dance yet, but this is one I really want to go to. It doesn't look like it is going to happen though. Just once I would like to go shopping with my mom for a dress to something fancy. Just once I would like to be treated like any other girl would be on that "magical" night. Unfortunetly such miracles are in short supply in Aliso Viejo. Maybe if I went to Antarctica (oooo humor...feeling is returning!). Well I feel a little better getting that off my chest. Ok now Im done. Congratulations if you read through all that. Now if you don;t think I'm shallow and vain you get an extra point.