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I haven't written in this thing for well over a year. I was about to give it up--until I ran into a dear friend of mine... or rather she ran into here. We talked about it in passing, I suppose, her going through my journal while I daisily looked back at her reading it. She reminded me of a lot of things that had happened between then and now....How far back into the scars that made me what I am. If anything at all, I will continue to write here for myself, has a place where I can collect my thoughts....just me. and the few of you out there who care to creep in once in a while, I thank you.
Tonight, there are two things I am sure of--beyond a shadow of a doubt. 1. the load cell in my lab is broken...I don't have the money to fix it ($5000) and I don't know for sure if it was me. It was kind of broken last semester, I took the blame for it then, not that I really thought I broke it but, I had no better arguement to show that I didn't. But this time, I am sure that I didn't fully break the load cell, I used it for only 15 pellets and nothing out of the ordinary occured. I actually don't need most of the data the load cell collects-in fact I manually calculate most of my numbers. It's not to say that someone else down the road wouldn't need them. lol. I don't know what to do.
2. I am faceblind. The older I am getting I am beginning to realize that many of my friends cease to look familiar to me. There was this one dude named Nick whom I met via my neighbor from two years ago...I knew his name, his major, some of his interests, I just never engrained into my head what he actually looked like. And so it came to pass that we ran into eachother on nearly ten or so occasions, I was not able to recognize him...at all for nearly seven of those. But it isn't just this dude, it seems to be the case for most people I know. It is frustrating because people begin to think that they are not important enough for me to remember and that's far from the truth. Even simply wearing high heels or glasses I've havn't seen before throws me completely off.
anyhow, I am headed off to Snelling.
Tonight, there are two things I am sure of--beyond a shadow of a doubt. 1. the load cell in my lab is broken...I don't have the money to fix it ($5000) and I don't know for sure if it was me. It was kind of broken last semester, I took the blame for it then, not that I really thought I broke it but, I had no better arguement to show that I didn't. But this time, I am sure that I didn't fully break the load cell, I used it for only 15 pellets and nothing out of the ordinary occured. I actually don't need most of the data the load cell collects-in fact I manually calculate most of my numbers. It's not to say that someone else down the road wouldn't need them. lol. I don't know what to do.
2. I am faceblind. The older I am getting I am beginning to realize that many of my friends cease to look familiar to me. There was this one dude named Nick whom I met via my neighbor from two years ago...I knew his name, his major, some of his interests, I just never engrained into my head what he actually looked like. And so it came to pass that we ran into eachother on nearly ten or so occasions, I was not able to recognize him...at all for nearly seven of those. But it isn't just this dude, it seems to be the case for most people I know. It is frustrating because people begin to think that they are not important enough for me to remember and that's far from the truth. Even simply wearing high heels or glasses I've havn't seen before throws me completely off.
anyhow, I am headed off to Snelling.