Band of Gold
Hi. Just sittin' in the living room. Thought I would update. Everyone's gone to bed and I'm bored.
I had a pretty good day today. I woke up early and gave Mom a ride to work so I could use her car. I drank some coffee and watched the Today Show, then went to Memere's to help her with her bills. I took her out to do a bunch of errands, then hung out with her for a while and played ball with the dog.
I went to the dentist this afternoon for the first time in two years cuz I have no insurance and no mon. I was close to having a full-blown panic attack in the office. I calmed myself enough that they didn't think I was a crazy person, but it was really strange because I have never been afraid of the dentist. I guess I'm not surprised, though. I am so nervous at any given moment that I feel like I am going to lose control. I've felt like this a lot lately, but it is not nearly as bad when I am in Orono. All I can picture is that everything I am doing over break (sitting around with hours and hours to think, taking care of Memere, taking care of Aunt Elsie, worrying, etc.) is what I am going to be doing for the rest of my life. I can't wait to go to Orono on Thursday.
I felt better after and went back to Memere's for a bit. I talked to Dad for a minute as I was leaving and he was coming in. He said he wants to "talk" to me tomorrow night. We'll see what that means. I picked Mom up from work, then Aunt Elsie kept me on the phone until dinner lol. We had leftovers. Mom and I hung around tonight, then she went to bed and I went to Tony's to give him his b-day card. I visited with him for a while and here I am. Maybe I will go read more of the stack of Cosmos and Glamour that Mom puts on my bed for every time I come home. Or maybe I will start packing for Districts. Especially since I have to pack for Hartford, too. And we all know how I get when it comes to getting ready for a trip <3333
I cannot believe that Districts is in two days. And I CANNOT believe that we are hosting it. It just doesn't even seem real. I think we all feel this way because it seems like it just snuck up on us...even though everything we have done this semester has been planning for Convention. I am really excited. It's gonna be awesome. And I can't wait to see my Brothers: active, sexually active, alumni, other chapters, etc. Hahaha. It feels like so long since I have seen everyone. For some, it's been since last Convention; others, 4 days. I hope we really have that sleepover at Park St. we've been talking about. We were all so sad that we couldn't drive to Districts together and sleep in a hotel together, so Andrew suggested we have a big sleepover at Park St. Aww, how sweet that would be!
Alright, gonna go snuggle with Lolo and wait for The Golden Girls/The Nanny at 11. Whichever has the better episode tonight is the one we will watch. Night.
I had a pretty good day today. I woke up early and gave Mom a ride to work so I could use her car. I drank some coffee and watched the Today Show, then went to Memere's to help her with her bills. I took her out to do a bunch of errands, then hung out with her for a while and played ball with the dog.
I went to the dentist this afternoon for the first time in two years cuz I have no insurance and no mon. I was close to having a full-blown panic attack in the office. I calmed myself enough that they didn't think I was a crazy person, but it was really strange because I have never been afraid of the dentist. I guess I'm not surprised, though. I am so nervous at any given moment that I feel like I am going to lose control. I've felt like this a lot lately, but it is not nearly as bad when I am in Orono. All I can picture is that everything I am doing over break (sitting around with hours and hours to think, taking care of Memere, taking care of Aunt Elsie, worrying, etc.) is what I am going to be doing for the rest of my life. I can't wait to go to Orono on Thursday.
I felt better after and went back to Memere's for a bit. I talked to Dad for a minute as I was leaving and he was coming in. He said he wants to "talk" to me tomorrow night. We'll see what that means. I picked Mom up from work, then Aunt Elsie kept me on the phone until dinner lol. We had leftovers. Mom and I hung around tonight, then she went to bed and I went to Tony's to give him his b-day card. I visited with him for a while and here I am. Maybe I will go read more of the stack of Cosmos and Glamour that Mom puts on my bed for every time I come home. Or maybe I will start packing for Districts. Especially since I have to pack for Hartford, too. And we all know how I get when it comes to getting ready for a trip <3333
I cannot believe that Districts is in two days. And I CANNOT believe that we are hosting it. It just doesn't even seem real. I think we all feel this way because it seems like it just snuck up on us...even though everything we have done this semester has been planning for Convention. I am really excited. It's gonna be awesome. And I can't wait to see my Brothers: active, sexually active, alumni, other chapters, etc. Hahaha. It feels like so long since I have seen everyone. For some, it's been since last Convention; others, 4 days. I hope we really have that sleepover at Park St. we've been talking about. We were all so sad that we couldn't drive to Districts together and sleep in a hotel together, so Andrew suggested we have a big sleepover at Park St. Aww, how sweet that would be!
Alright, gonna go snuggle with Lolo and wait for The Golden Girls/The Nanny at 11. Whichever has the better episode tonight is the one we will watch. Night.