Leaving never hurts as much as being left behind
Hey all...I'm doing a lot better at the moment. It seems likes my suspicions were correct...I was letting my feelings get hurt when I shouldn't have. I've talked to a few people that had caused me to feel excluded. No...I didn't bring up my feelings with them, but by passing conversations figured out that most of them just didn't know what my feelings were on the subject of "going out" and all that stuff...which is understandable as I didn't know them before this year. It made me feel so much better though to feel included. I know that not everyone is going to be my best friend...and I don't think I'd want that...but I felt like I wasn't a part of a more general circle of people. I think that's fixed though...There is still an issue with one person, but I think I've figured that out as well, and there is nothing I can really do to change what feelings are there...it's going to be a point of contension for at least this semester. Hopefully it won't ruin what was there before though.
NOW...I really want to find a guy for me. (I'm SOOO jealous Lisa!!) The joy of having someone there to suprise me for random stuff, someone I could bounce things off of without feeling like I was breaking some code of conduct, someone to support me through all the shit I have to do, and, most important, someone to give me backrubs...ok maybe not most important...but getting there. I don't know. I know I don't really have time for a relationship at the moment, but I can't help but feel that a good relationship would make everything easier. Oh well...it'll happen when it's supposed to happen, right?
I'm joining AXE (Alpha Chi Sigma). It's the honors chemistry fraternity on campus. I think it will be quite a bit of fun, and introduce me to a lot of very neat, determined people. We'll see how it progresses.
Nothing much else going on here. Classes are classes, and SAing is SAing (drunk people in my hallway...BAD THING!!...especially when I've actually been out for a little bit for the first time in forever)...but all in all everything is good and much better. Oh...I watched a bootlegged copy of Wicked on Broadway tonight. AMAZING SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love all the music, and the dialogue was suprisingly hilarious. I feel like I should have decided to go to the touring show with a lot of other people, but I know I will like having that extra money in Austria in May. Oh well...it's late and I have a lot to do tomorrow...so I'm going to go.
Love to everyone!!!!!
NOW...I really want to find a guy for me. (I'm SOOO jealous Lisa!!) The joy of having someone there to suprise me for random stuff, someone I could bounce things off of without feeling like I was breaking some code of conduct, someone to support me through all the shit I have to do, and, most important, someone to give me backrubs...ok maybe not most important...but getting there. I don't know. I know I don't really have time for a relationship at the moment, but I can't help but feel that a good relationship would make everything easier. Oh well...it'll happen when it's supposed to happen, right?
I'm joining AXE (Alpha Chi Sigma). It's the honors chemistry fraternity on campus. I think it will be quite a bit of fun, and introduce me to a lot of very neat, determined people. We'll see how it progresses.
Nothing much else going on here. Classes are classes, and SAing is SAing (drunk people in my hallway...BAD THING!!...especially when I've actually been out for a little bit for the first time in forever)...but all in all everything is good and much better. Oh...I watched a bootlegged copy of Wicked on Broadway tonight. AMAZING SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love all the music, and the dialogue was suprisingly hilarious. I feel like I should have decided to go to the touring show with a lot of other people, but I know I will like having that extra money in Austria in May. Oh well...it's late and I have a lot to do tomorrow...so I'm going to go.
Love to everyone!!!!!