Unexpected.

[trulywishing]

Somethings happen even if you don't want it to.
I wasn't prepared for what he was going to say.
I wasn't prepared for my heart to feel like its been crushed.
I wasn't ready for that.
I didn't expect him to say he wasn't thinking.
I didn't think he would want to get back together.
And things feel different now.
I don't know why and I really don't want to over think it.
The fact that he could just tell me its over after everything...
Seeing him cry like i never have before...
HOW can i get all of that out of my head?
Because I would love to.
Yet I really want to just get back to what we had.
WHY does it feel like it will never be the same?
WHY does my stomach ache every time I think about it?
I just want to feel happy again.
I don't want to fake it.
I did it for one day so far.
Enough to remember that i remember why hated it.
Is it that difficult to find someone who is going to love you for who you are and not break your heart eventually?
Because I thought that's what I found with him.
And how wrong was I.
Now I'm in constant fear that he will break my heart even further...