my heart breaks

[trulyhere]

I hate this. I truly do. I used to be the stoic one in my family. The brave one. The one who never cries. And now look at me. I feel that over the past year or so, I have let myself open up so much - become so wrapped up in a relationship, let myself fall in love. I have just become so vulnerable to it all. And I hate that. Because when

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[simp1y_me]

Hey...

I guess we are suppose to love like it is never going to hurt-you know, just like we are also suppose to dance like no one is watching. All I know is that in the end you always get hurt and look like a fool.

It is important to open yourself up and fall in love though. Those are life's precious things, even if they hurt sometimes. Without being in love and opening ourselves up we would never be allowed to get butterflies or the giggles with someone we love. Not only with men either...But in our family relationships too. What is the point of living if we can't love? I have seen you with your family and friends. You as a person are so important to all of us and even if you feel vulnerable, remember that we all are and you are not alone. In one way or another we truly are all vulnerable.

I don't have any other advice for this. I guess just know that you are not alone. No matter what or who it is, it always hurts. That's life I guess. And don't forget it is ok to cry. I mean, my mother taught me (as her mother had taught her), "it is only healthy to cry at least once a day". I don't know about that, it seems a bit excessive, but it works.

I can't wait for you to come back to Boston. Call me any time!!! I'm always around. Happy Holidays, send my love to the family and the pets.

Nic

Thank You

[trulyhere]

Hey, Nic. Thank you for all you had to say. I really do appreciate it, you know. I will have to give you a more specific update on what i was babbling about at some point. Furthermore, I am sorry to have read about your high school friend, Edwin. It's been one shitty year. HOPEFULLY, since we are bringing in the new year together, things will be better in 2004. We can surely bring the next year in with a bang! I miss you like crazy! I cannot wait to back in Boston and be able to come over to your place in the evenings, eat ice cream, order elia's, watch either Buffy for Dawson... and have a blast! At some point, I really need to talk to you about housing. I am having some other issues at home right now. So, soon enough we will catch up! Take it easy... don't hurt any of those little Bright Horizons kids!