It's just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance, but there was once you
ive been at school so much this week. i dont really want to be here but i dont really want to go home. i feel like im in limbo.
do you ever have a week or so when you feel like you're always hiding something, tucking something away, until all at one moment you are just ready to explode?
edge. thats where i am. not like hey edge of cliff ill jump off! no, over that. more like just on edge of everything, not quite there, yet not gone yet? i dont know, its odd. little actions turning through my head being over analyzed and spit back out with a conclusion of no meaning, yet so much.
ryan ott is the coolest kid ever. i almost accidently kissed him today, but in a friend way, because i just want to let him know how much he means to me in that way. i dont think he could handle that kind of affection quite yet, cant have him liking me. it could ruin everything.
i want a boyfriend or girlfriend. just a real relationship, where both people care, maybe not equally, but care. i think im just lonely because i havent hooked up with anyone recently.
"The phone slips from a loose grip. Words were missed then some apology like I didn't want to
tell you this it's just some guys she has been hanging out with oh I don't know the past couple
of weeks I guess. Thank you and hang up the phone. Let the funeral start. Hear the casket
close. Let's pin split-black ribbon onto your overcoat. Still laughter pours from under doors in this
house. I don't understand that sound no more. It seems artificial like a T.V. set. Haligh, Haligh,
Haligh, Haligh this weight it must be satisfied. You offer only one reply. You know not what you
do. But you tear and tear your hair from roots. From that same head you have twice removed a
lock of hair you said would prove our love would never die. Well ha ha ha. But I remember
everything the words we spoke on freezing South street. And all those morning watching you
get ready for school. You combed your hair inside that mirror. The one you painted blue and
glued with jewelry tears. Something about those bright colors always made you feel better. So
now we speak with ruined tongues and the words we say aren't' meant for anyone. It's just a
mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance, but there was once you said you hated my
suffering and you understood and you'd take care of me. You would always be there, well where
are you now? Haligh, Haligh, Haligh, Haligh, the plans were never finalized but left to hang like
yarn and twice dangling before my eyes. As you tear and tear your hair from roots, from that
same head that you have twice removed a lock of hair you said would prove that our love would
never die. As I sing and sing of awful things, the pleasure that my sadness brings as my fingers
press onto the strings you get another clumsy chord. Haligh, Haligh, an awful lie. This weight will
now be satisfied. I will give you only one reply, I know not who I am but I talk in the mirror to the
stranger that appears. Our conversations are circles and always one sided, nothing is clear.
Except we keep coming back to this meaning that I lack. He says the choices were given and
now I must live them or just not live, but do you want that?"-bright eyes, haligh haligh
do you ever have a week or so when you feel like you're always hiding something, tucking something away, until all at one moment you are just ready to explode?
edge. thats where i am. not like hey edge of cliff ill jump off! no, over that. more like just on edge of everything, not quite there, yet not gone yet? i dont know, its odd. little actions turning through my head being over analyzed and spit back out with a conclusion of no meaning, yet so much.
ryan ott is the coolest kid ever. i almost accidently kissed him today, but in a friend way, because i just want to let him know how much he means to me in that way. i dont think he could handle that kind of affection quite yet, cant have him liking me. it could ruin everything.
i want a boyfriend or girlfriend. just a real relationship, where both people care, maybe not equally, but care. i think im just lonely because i havent hooked up with anyone recently.
"The phone slips from a loose grip. Words were missed then some apology like I didn't want to
tell you this it's just some guys she has been hanging out with oh I don't know the past couple
of weeks I guess. Thank you and hang up the phone. Let the funeral start. Hear the casket
close. Let's pin split-black ribbon onto your overcoat. Still laughter pours from under doors in this
house. I don't understand that sound no more. It seems artificial like a T.V. set. Haligh, Haligh,
Haligh, Haligh this weight it must be satisfied. You offer only one reply. You know not what you
do. But you tear and tear your hair from roots. From that same head you have twice removed a
lock of hair you said would prove our love would never die. Well ha ha ha. But I remember
everything the words we spoke on freezing South street. And all those morning watching you
get ready for school. You combed your hair inside that mirror. The one you painted blue and
glued with jewelry tears. Something about those bright colors always made you feel better. So
now we speak with ruined tongues and the words we say aren't' meant for anyone. It's just a
mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance, but there was once you said you hated my
suffering and you understood and you'd take care of me. You would always be there, well where
are you now? Haligh, Haligh, Haligh, Haligh, the plans were never finalized but left to hang like
yarn and twice dangling before my eyes. As you tear and tear your hair from roots, from that
same head that you have twice removed a lock of hair you said would prove that our love would
never die. As I sing and sing of awful things, the pleasure that my sadness brings as my fingers
press onto the strings you get another clumsy chord. Haligh, Haligh, an awful lie. This weight will
now be satisfied. I will give you only one reply, I know not who I am but I talk in the mirror to the
stranger that appears. Our conversations are circles and always one sided, nothing is clear.
Except we keep coming back to this meaning that I lack. He says the choices were given and
now I must live them or just not live, but do you want that?"-bright eyes, haligh haligh