Why wont you let me live like this
Ok so everything always is perfect when Im with Deanna and Sophie they are great they make me so happy then I have to go home to my god forsaken house and I get pissed today I was with Deanna almost all day and it was so bloody hot but I was happy and barley noticed then my mom says I can sleep over I just gotta go to the house and check in WTF so I said ok and I did then shes like your not sleeping over then flipps on me and pisses me off so I just got so pissed I told Deanna to go I hate ruining her time cause my mom is a fucking cunt face. Yea so I got mad pissed and to cool me down I had to fucking peirce my nose just so I wouldnt stab myself I seriously just want my mom to go away why couldnt she have gone to arizona with my dad and never came back I can take care of my mother fucking self no one gets how sick and tired I am of being treated like Im 5 I have been threw a hell of a lot more than most people and I can handel myself I dont need a baby sitter and I dont need my mom calling me every two seconds shes sinking so low she told me the other day she was going to slit her wrists WTF shes 40 something years old and she cant live without me and my older sister I dont know what shes going to do when I leave which is going to be soon Im not going anywhere with her she drives me out of my mind MAYBE IM FUCKED IN THE HEAD BECAUSE OF HER just maybe omg omfg I cant calm down and I finally got the duech bags at verizon to get my god damn computer working I thought I was going to kill them to grrrr why cant people just treat me like Im 15 not 4 one day Im goin to all up leave this all behind and I really hope my mom knows that she is one of the biggest reasons why Im leaving I JUST NEED A FUCKING VACTION FOR THEM I want Brandon and I want things to be right things are going to explode when he gets home and I tell him everything GOSH no one gets how much that drives me crazy I cant even sleep because of it IM JUST GOING TO OD some thing anything to get me out of here AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I wanna fucking cry and it doesnt help that I cant breath and its not from smoking and my nebulizer doesnt work ahhhh hopefully it will be the death of me
They never notice that everytime I smile Im crying on the inside and everytime I choke its my heart slowly failing Im sick of being your fucking cheerleader Im sick of being your savior I watch the world so closly and I try to take it all in every time I with dont you notice my scilence Im inside myself tearing me apart Im broken and helpless fallen and clueless you say you never meet a girl who can hide her sadness as well as me cause from a far or up close you'd think everything was fucking peachy but living like this is taking its motherfucking toll on me why wont they just let me live
Think I'll pack it in and buy a pick-up
Take it down to L.A.
Find a place to call my own and try to fix up
Start a brand new day
The woman I'm thinking of, she loved me all up
But I'm so down today
She's so fine, she's in my mind
I hear her callin'
See the lonely boy, out on the weekend
Trying to make it pay
Can't relate to joy, he tries to speak and
Can't begin to say
She got pictures on the wall, they make me look up
>From her big brass bed
Now I'm running down the road trying to stay up
Somewhere in her head
The woman I'm thinking of, she loved me all up
But I'm so down today
She's so fine she's in my mind
I hear her callin'
See the lonely boy, out on the weekend
Trying to make it pay
Can't relate to joy, he tries to speak and
Can't begin to say
Well once I gave a look to you but you never gave it back
So here I stand expressionless but my memory's intact
I guess the past is good for a laugh
A comedy so dry and black
It makes my stomach hurt so bad, I cried
So two thumbs up we give this one despite it's predictable ending
Dialogue seemed rushed and wrong but the actors did their best
To lay some worth on every word
Like coffins dropped into the earth
The saddest sound I ever heard, we sang along
We sang it, take this weight away
We sang it, take this weight away
We sang it, take this weight away
Away
Away
I DONT WANT THE WORLD TO SEE ME CAUSE I DONT THIN THAT THEY'D UNDERSTAND WHEN EVERYTHING IS MENT TO BE BROKEN I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW WHO I AM