Nov 03, 2008 17:43
give me understanding, patience, hope. help me let go of doubt, helplessness, anger. let me be firm in my resolve, let me have your protection. I'm entrusting all my thoughts to you for safe-keeping- I'm trying to let go of my expectations. I don't need a concrete symbol. Be a sword and shield to stand at my side, a defender, a guardian, a protector, a guide, a love that can exist at it's own level, separate and safe from self-destruction.
when I reach out for help it's because I truly need it. It's because I finally got rid of that pride and asked. This isn't about anyone I know. This is about you- an inaccurate term from my present knowledge of the human language. The balance of good and bad, wrong and right, joy and sorrow, day and night- all is necessary and accepted as life and death.
I'm not diminshed in any way for trying to accept everything in this world, for trying to understand everything that I can about every culture, every race, every belief, every way of living. It doesn't matter if I don't agree with everyone, with everything, so long as I listen quietly without protest. You understand me, and that is enough. I know you're accepting of all that is individual, all that is willful or waryward at times- I'll find my way back through you, and I'll be stronger because of that.
help me heal from wounds I didn't know were still there. arigoto