Apr 13, 2008 14:51
"Sometimes it is not enough to do our best; we must do what is required." - Sir Winston Churchill
[Locked Private]
I'm not sure if the whole Thomas Crown affair was required. I mean it was a good idea at the time and we really needed money to get Slayer Central going. At least that's what I thought, but now I'm not so sure. What if Twilight Guy and Willow are right? What if the whole Slayer thing that's spiraling out of control is because of me, and my choices?
I mean I can clean up messes, I can so be clean up girl. I'm just not so sure that I can clean this one up. Then, what if my fixing this mess makes an even bigger mess? Gah! Why did I decide to keep slaying again and be the 'leader'?
Okay, I just need to take a deep breath, go forward and stop second guessing myself. Yeah, easier said than done. And for the record, those what would [insert person's name here] do bracelets, t-shirts and whatevers do not help in the whole decision making process.
I hope that whatever happens, it's something that can be fixed. Even if the fixing means undoing everything that I've done since Sunnydale. One giant cosmic do-over. That would be a price I'm willing to pay.
Buffy Summers ~*~ BtVS ~*~ 202 words
legacy,
thoughts,
being true to myself,
decisions,
creative muses