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ok... So i know that it has been forever since i have posted, and for good reason too. I have no internet at the house still and when i am on campus i am trying to get stuff done like a good girl. For instance, today i have a midterm, but i'm still writing to fill you guys in.
This summer has been pissy, and when i say that i mean to a full extent pissy.
But here is the short version...
Meagan betrayed me in Europe and I haven't spoken to my best friend of ten years since. And yes for those of you who care i punched her in the nose... and she deserved it! I still hold to that, she wondered what would happen when i was pushed, well that was it...when i look at pictures, i almost want to call her, but then i realize that i could never trust her again and i remove my hand from the phone.
Mike broke up with me. He said that he just didn't love me as much as i loved him and that wasn't fair. But he also did it over the phone while i was at work. His exact words were, "While i have been gone, I have been thinking about my priorities and you are just not one of them." I was heart borken for all of 2 weeks, then i got over it and moved on. I loved him with all that i was, but why love someone when you get nothing back. Oh... I forgot the part when he said that he didn't care if i lived or died... it was a fun time.
Two of my dogs then died because they ate something and their bodies shut down.
My mom then had a nervous breakdown and quit her job.
My roomate, not regina, then moved out with no notice and left us with all of the bills... she is a sucky bitch...
We then found out that my father, the only bread winner, has prostate cancer. It is still in the early stages so he doesn't need surgery, but still.
The water pump in my car then broke and i had to charge it... I have just maxed out a new credit card in the last month on various things.
Then angela decided taht an apology wasn't enough... i hope that she comes too. I love her too much to lose her.
My one saving grace in all of this has been Justin... Meagan if you still read this, I am dating a man in uniform. He is an Army recon medic stationed out of Fort Polk, La. He is angela's brother. alas!
he has been fabulous to me for just the one month that we have been dating. Mike told me to go out and find someone who loves me as much as i love him, and i did. The whole time i was dating mike i thought it was great because it was so much better than some of my other relationships. It was nothing comparatively. For the first time in a long time i feel beautiful, like i am actually what he wants, funny, intelligent and most of all appreciated. He loves me and i can see it and hear it in everything he says or does... i wish some circumstances were different.
I have to go and take my midterm but love to all
'Dre i miss you and my Cheesey Bread too!
This summer has been pissy, and when i say that i mean to a full extent pissy.
But here is the short version...
Meagan betrayed me in Europe and I haven't spoken to my best friend of ten years since. And yes for those of you who care i punched her in the nose... and she deserved it! I still hold to that, she wondered what would happen when i was pushed, well that was it...when i look at pictures, i almost want to call her, but then i realize that i could never trust her again and i remove my hand from the phone.
Mike broke up with me. He said that he just didn't love me as much as i loved him and that wasn't fair. But he also did it over the phone while i was at work. His exact words were, "While i have been gone, I have been thinking about my priorities and you are just not one of them." I was heart borken for all of 2 weeks, then i got over it and moved on. I loved him with all that i was, but why love someone when you get nothing back. Oh... I forgot the part when he said that he didn't care if i lived or died... it was a fun time.
Two of my dogs then died because they ate something and their bodies shut down.
My mom then had a nervous breakdown and quit her job.
My roomate, not regina, then moved out with no notice and left us with all of the bills... she is a sucky bitch...
We then found out that my father, the only bread winner, has prostate cancer. It is still in the early stages so he doesn't need surgery, but still.
The water pump in my car then broke and i had to charge it... I have just maxed out a new credit card in the last month on various things.
Then angela decided taht an apology wasn't enough... i hope that she comes too. I love her too much to lose her.
My one saving grace in all of this has been Justin... Meagan if you still read this, I am dating a man in uniform. He is an Army recon medic stationed out of Fort Polk, La. He is angela's brother. alas!
he has been fabulous to me for just the one month that we have been dating. Mike told me to go out and find someone who loves me as much as i love him, and i did. The whole time i was dating mike i thought it was great because it was so much better than some of my other relationships. It was nothing comparatively. For the first time in a long time i feel beautiful, like i am actually what he wants, funny, intelligent and most of all appreciated. He loves me and i can see it and hear it in everything he says or does... i wish some circumstances were different.
I have to go and take my midterm but love to all
'Dre i miss you and my Cheesey Bread too!